Updated Version of My Death Maze Chapter #SonofTwisted bio that’s based on my second #exgirlfriend and our #twisted #relationship

Son Of Twisted

Death Maze Chapter

 

This Michael Jackson verse from his Dirty Dina song describes my relationship with Cherry

(Verse2)

 

“She likes the boys in the band

She knows when they are coming to town

She’s every musician’s fan

After the curtains come down

She waits for those at the back door

For those who have prestige

Who promise fortune and fame

A life that’s so care free

She’s saying that’s okay

Hey baby, do what you want

I’ll be your night-loving thing

I’ll be the freak you can taunt

And I don’t care what you say

I want to go too far

I’ll be your everything

If you make me a star.”

 

That’s why I believe that Cherry dated me, so I can make her into an overnight star

Based on my popularity at Palmer home do too how Palmer was obsessed with my gifted for writing

And hoping that my talents would put them on the map

That is why Cherry singled me out from rest of the competition because of Palmer’s favouritism

That Palmer especially had for me as Cherry assume if I am getting a free ride why can’t she?

That’s what sparked all of the envious and jealousy and conflict with the other Palmer residents

And why I was used and abused and now why I am blacklisted mostly by everyone in Palmer Home.

 

Because see I was one month away from moving out to Community Living back in March of 2008

And after my last relationship went to hell, I vowed to myself that I wouldn’t date again,

Only to contradict myself as a young blonde hair girl came into Palmer Home

And the first my first impression I had as I thought that she was one of the staff’s daughters.

But I was wrong as she was a new resident or client to my group home.

 

We started to flirt back and forth at first be that she made it abundantly clear

That she has a no dating policy and creepily perceived us all as either her brothers or sisters,

Only for her too later on contradict herself.

 

See all of the male residents or clients were gunning for her, so at first I assumed I didn’t have a chance

Because when I am not writing I don’t have any confidence in myself,

Because what strangely made me popular in this house of horrors is that I have an uncanny ability with words since I was 12 years old, but all of my groups homes until this one came along usually vilify and discouraged my writing talents but for some unknown reason Palmer home embraced and nurture my talent,

Which put a target on my back as the other residents felt like Palmer home was favouring me more,

As I seemed to get special privilege and treatment in how Palmer home treated me compared to the others.

So most of the residents would be sycophants in hoping that the owner of Palmer home Dave would give them the same perks as me, basically I had no friends just people wanting to kiss my ass and that is sadly more true now

Especially when I left Palmer home as that’s when every bodies true colors showed as I am now blacklisted.

 

Now I recall the first time I nervously asked her out as me and this other resident both wanted her

And we both were in her sick game or competition for her heart,

And I didn’t realize it at the time until the end of our twisted abusive relationship had ended.

See me and chad were both in Mike’s convenience store up the road and around a corner from Palmer home

As I stupidly and enabling Chad’s bad habits, as I had a hard time making friends in Palmer home,

So I thought that I could buy off their loyalty in hopes for their friendships and knowing that Chad was using me

I still bought him cigarettes and Pro-lines, but at the time Chad gave me an ultimatum,

Threating me that if I asked Cherry out then Chad wouldn’t be my friend anymore,

But instead I scoffed and laughed at that and took it as a challenge on myself to hopefully give my confidence a boost. So I ran back to palmer home with the attention to ask the new girl out name Cherry and when I got back

Cherry was on the phone at the time when I asked her out, but what I didn’t know is the person that she was talking to was an old Foster under aged brother that she had inappropriate relations with do to him being a minor.

So I didn’t think much of that when cherry reviled that to me after she got off the phone,

But the way she sexually flirted with him on the phone did have me nervous at first but she reinsured me that her foster brother are now both friends and that I didn’t have anything to worry about and that was considered my first mistake and first signs I stupidly ignored when I shouldn’t have, but my masochistic side of me which started off as being noble because chad reviled his true intentions at the time that assisted me in winning over Cherry’s heart

As Chad told me because mostly every resident was on government disability and was receiving a cheque,

So chad’s intentions as it was with all of the females residents was to have sex with them and sponge off their disability cheques and then want nothing to do with them afterwards, so I regretfully reviled Chad’s intentions, thinking at the time that I was doing something noble and right but wishing now that I didn’t informed Cherry of Chad’s malevolent plan to win over her heart,

 

Also do to everyone having hidden motives at the time when I asked Cherry out, for an example Palmer home had a no dating policy due to past residents getting pregnant and how the male resident aged out which supposedly turn into an ugly custody battle over the baby and the father not wanting anything to do with the mother anymore, forced Palmer home to discourage any relationships from forming which mostly every resident ignored, on top of that the male residents who felt threatened by me would attempt to tell me that Cherry was a slut in hopes that I would back off and that they would have a better chance at winning Cherry’s heart if I was out of the way altogether. So they would try to deliberately sabotage my chances, but again my masochistic side of me wanted her and wasn’t going to let anyone try to discourage me from getting her and I wished I had listen to my instincts at the time, maybe then I would be in the mess I am in now if I did.

 

Now back to the first time when I encountered Cherry and assumed that she was one of the staff’s daughters.

See I didn’t live in Palmer home at the time though I was still under the Palmer banner, but I was a part of their independent program where I had my own apartment but I was still being supported by Palmer home, where they had me still come over to Palmer home few times a week for any additional support and to mingle with the other residents as well give me free meals out of it, so on this particular day I was at Palmer home as one of my schedule days to be there and I used to dye my hair a lot but only trusted the staff to help me dye my hair. Well the female staff was busy at the time, so I had my CD Walkman and was listening to my favorited Eminem album Marshall Mathers LP that inspired my creative juices as Eminem’s music has always done for me and I had my note book of poems I wrote in and didn’t think much of it at the time and as I was writing my latest one, I wanted to show the Palmer staff but again she was busy, so Cherry asked me if she could read my poems and at first her intentions seemed innocent, so I showed her not assuming she would give me any feedback on my hobby, but she did I was thrilled when she asked if she could keep some of my poems, I said sure, but honestly outside of Palmer home staff from reading my poems I didn’t expect that anyone else would care or want my poems, making me attracted to her even though I didn’t think I had an actual shot with Cherry, being that I assumed that she was a staff’s daughter at the time. Well Cherry wanted to help dye my hair as she had desires at the time to be a haircut dresser and wanted to use me as her guinea pig, but me being very narcissistic about my hair I said no to her, you can’t dye my hair, but that did stop us from still flirting. See as Palmer was beginning to have dinner, I would share with everybody my pop, since Palmer home’s juices was always water down because supposedly the residents get very hyper and start to acted out, so the staff made a habit of always watering down the juices, though not everybody like me got hyper and acted out, so I would bring my own beverages basically pop as I am known for and at the time I was sharing my pop with everybody while Cherry was playing footsies with me under the table, making me feel more confident later on to ask her out which I stupidly did when I shouldn’t have. But what also strengthens our bond was the slow dance we had at Farrah’s wedding. Farrah was a staff filling in at the time for one of the managers who was out having her second child basically on maternity leave, so Farrah ran the day to day operations in Palmer home and Farrah’s long time fiancé named after a pool game or maybe a US rocket ship that Tom Hanks and Kevin Bacon was once in before it blew up! As they both decided to tie the knot and  at the hall or banquet where Farrah invited all of Palmer home to go, as we dressed in our finest, where me and Cherry finally cemented our relationship if that’s what you want to call a relationship, because I felt like Ralph Wiggum from the Valentine episode where Lisa Simpson gives him a choo, choo train Valentine card that says choo, choo you choose me, because it seemed real when Cherry picked me out but like Miranda Hillard from Robin Williams classic Mrs. Doubtfire scene near the end of the movie when she discovers Robin Williams as Mrs. Doubtfire, by saying “ Daniel? Daniel! Oh my God. Oh my God! Oh my God! The whole time? Than angrily she says the whole time? That’s how I felt when the gig was up between me and Cherry as the veil was lifted on what was Cherry’s true intentions were all along as I found out later on at the end of our relationship.

 

{Now the plagiarizing scandal of me and Cherry’s twisted relationship}

 

See me and Cherry have been dating though I don’t know if that is what it should be called because in in group homes relationships were only formed because of the situation that you’re in and because that person can somewhat relate to you and understands you better than the staff or the psychiatrists could ever do and being that we all suffered from Stockholm Syndrome, though instead of falling in love with our captors we fell in love with each other and ultimately my bad judgment as I dated Cherry so I assumed, but that wasn’t ever the case as she only dated me do to my position, rank or status in Palmer home, which explains later on how I became expendable when I moved out of Palmer home into Community Living as Cherry’s true colors later on were reviled.

 

As every knows I am a writer and one day while I was dating Cherry she came back home from her school and was very excited about getting an A+ on one her pome she supposedly wrote and submitted to her art teacher in her art class and at first I just being a good boyfriend and giving her as much positive support though I never got to read what she wrote, No! Cherry decided to share it with two female staff that have been a fan of my poems for a long time named Betty-Lynn and  Gail and at the time that was Cherry first mistake that she made as I could read the staffs facial expression as I waited for Cherry who was in the staff office at the time and they were not to thrill with Cherry’s written poem as I found out later on as the staff reported her to her school which the school in returned expelled her for the rest of the remaining year based on plagiarism as it was my understanding at the time, which Cherry still holds a grudge towards me to this day as it was one of her reasons why she now still hates me. See the female staff Betty-Lynn and  Gail warned her not to show me as I have pride in my poems, but Cherry did and as expected I was pissed off that my poems were being stolen and I wasn’t receiving any credits for my poems, which began the friction in our relationship, but it wasn’t me that asked the staff to report her to her school that eventually expelled her for the rest of the remaining school year, that was the female staffs Betty-Lynn and  Gail who were fans of my poems and had read enough of my poems to know that it was my poems that Cherry was ultimately using to give herself a better graded in school, plus I forgot to mention as she didn’t think I had a clue on her promiscuous cheating ways and maybe this might be rumors I head well dating her? That she had a few high school lovers that she had behind my back while dating me, but do to me being insecure and I stupidly thought I had a chance with Cherry, but in actuality I was just pathetic, naïve and maybe desperate on my part at the time to the point where I overlooked her promiscuous cheating ways, though the signs were clearly always there like writing on the wall, but I just took it as graffiti and assumed that it was all in my head do to me having constant trust issues, that I have been battling since my last failed relationship, so I didn’t make a big deal out of it when I should have because I thought her feelings for me were absolutely genuine when clearly that wasn’t the case what so ever! I also knew that she never had any feelings for me the way that she would talk very sexually to her foster brother though she was under a restraining order from her foster parents, as from my understanding not to have any interactions with her foster brother, do to her being 19 and her foster brother being a preteen basically 12 or 14 years old when she had sex with him being that he was a minor at the time and either two scenarios of what I believe happened as I don’t know the full story, but either the most likely she got caught by the foster parents or it was a blackmail gone bad that got her kicked out of her last foster home and that’s why she ended up in Palmer home in the first place but that didn’t actually stop her from still interacting with her foster brother that she called nightly and spoke to him very sexual, but she always tried to insure me that her and her foster brother relationship was strictly platonic, but I always had my doubts and suspicions at the time but stupidly overlooked them for my selfish ego, because in group homes it’s all about your reputation as group homes have this stigma to be like high school meets prison mentality and Cherry was the most attractive female resident in Palmer home at the time and everybody was gunning for her in hopes that she would date one of us but sadly it turned out to be me who got choose and at first I was happy that Cherry picked me, but I now know why she picked me out of the many single horny bachelors in Palmer home and that was because of my status in Palmer home at the time. Which I know deep down hurt’s my pride and ego as a man to admit that because my feelings for her might have started off as juvenile, childish and immature at first, but once I assume that I understood her my feelings became real and noble and I really wanted to make us work out, but sadly that will never be.

 

{Now my stupid mistake\ life lesson}

 

See me and a few others including Cherry were playing a game of Monopoly in the summertime and one and the same female staff Betty-Lynn that was against Cherry’s plagiarism was also was playing with us and wearing this noticeable tank top with her cleavage hanging out, also I should note that the female staff Betty-Lynn was roughly around my age group, but staff have this teachers like clause of no dating, so from common sense everyone knew she was off limits, but it didn’t stop us from looking at her exposed cleavage well Cherry for some unknown reason was wearing a white turtleneck in the middle of summer as well me and Cherry was dating for a few weeks by now and I always believe in being honest but on this particular day I was too honest as Betty-Lynn the female staff that I liked as any guy would be sexually turned on by her exposed cleavage and as Betty-Lynn went to answer her ringing cellphone which put our game on hold as Betty-Lynn was taking a smoke break and as well talking on the phone outside, so Cherry  asked me what I thought was a metaphorical or hypothetical question at the time and that was would I fuck Betty-Lynn? I replied back with a yes! Assuming that Cherry knew that nothing realistically could ever happen or that I was being interrogated, but instead unexpectedly all hell broke loose as Cherry flipped over the table and the Monopoly board before storming off to her bedroom and destroying it and the older polish staff name Zed shook his head and said to me here’s some good advice for you Curtis and that is never tell a women especially if she is your girlfriend that you have the hots for some other girl as women are very territorial and jealous and don’t want to feel like their man is shopping somewhere else Zed says to me and I replied to Zed don’t worry I’ll make this right LOL! Which I obviously didn’t as I told Cherry though the crack of her bedroom door that if me, Betty-Lynn and you were to have a threesomes I promise when I get to my Cumming point I’ll make sure I’ll cum in you and that only made Cherry that much more pissed off where Cherry was calling me every name in the book while destroying her bedroom more and that’s when Betty-Lynn returned from her smoke break and was wondering what’s all the commotion and why is Cherry upset? Zed replies back because Curtis told her that he would sleep with you basically fuck you and the Betty-Lynn got mad at me and went into Cherry’s room to try to calm her down, also Betty-Lynn if I recalled slapped me while telling her boyfriend and now her husband what I said to Cherry, which had me scared because I felt that he might show up and beat me up for hitting on his girlfriend and now wife but thank God that he never showed up that day. Well I apologized to Cherry  later on that day and it seemed that everything between me and Cherry went back to normal so I assumed which turned out to be a mistake as Cherry forever held a grudge for me for the rest of the remainder of our twisted symbiotic relationship as I felt plus I would never cheat on a woman I am dating, but I do have eyes and I am not blind and I really thought it was a metaphorical or hypothetical and not an interrogation question or a interrogation tactic from Cherry, as I didn’t know that she would have immaturely reacted this way being that she was my second relationship at the time in Palmer home as most of my group homes I came from were all boys homes, so I didn’t have much interacted with women or girls until I got to Palmer home and was forced into my first and failed relationship if I am to explain my actions and that was my bad, but I thought this story was funny be if it’s immature for what it was worth at the time when Cherry was mad at me for telling her that I would fuck Betty-Lynn and as you the readers  will find out that I have a habit of looking for negative reactions as my positive reinforcement because too me people used to think that I was too serious and that I needed to lighten up so I did, by making jokes out of everything that happens in my life but those same people now find it to be obnoxious and overplayed.

 

{Now Cherry’s Rape Accusations}

 

Before I get into Cherry’s alleged rape accusation\ allegation or as I as I understand it now to be miscommunication between Cherry and the staff when Cherry made this absurd claims, let me set the scene by giving you all a history lesson of past events that lead to this point in time.

 

See I tried to close the deal with Cherry a few times though unfortunately unsuccessfully, But I can recall a few times I tried like this one time where I was invited to go swimming, but I usually didn’t like hanging out with Palmer home do to me having a lone wolf like personally plus the Palmer residents didn’t know or cared how to behave in community when they did their outings and this outing to the pool was no different, but do to me I was trying to be supportive to Cherry, but I said to her that I couldn’t go anyways as I don’t have any swimming trunks, plus I can’t swim do to some near drowning death experience I had that deterred me from swimming, but for Cherry I went anyways after the staff convince one of the residents I think his name was Duke and he let me used his Swimming trucks because I was usually particular in wearing other people’s cloths also because Palmer residents weren’t big on cleanliness, but Duke was one of the few people like me who cared about his appearance and hygiene, so I took him up on his offer for his swimming trucks and headed out to Richmond Hills public pool that was up the road from Palmer home and when I got there I stayed in the shallow end of the pool where Cherry was grinding up against me in the pool which I didn’t mind at the time and Cherry wanted to have sex in the unisex bathrooms and again this shows the favouritism that staff have for me because usually staff opposed residents from having sexual relations do to Palmer’s no dating policy but the staff made an acceptation for me and Cherry by telling us that we are both consenting adults and Palmer trusted me as I wasn’t working an angle like the other residents that just want to used and abused each other due to relationships were never treated as sacred as it was like being at a live Jerry Springer live taping the way the residents would fornicate and then turn on each other weekly. But beyond that let me take you all back to the story, see there was a resident name after a bible character named Cornelius and I think he had O.D.C. disorder why I say that he was very punctual with his smoke break and he had to have his cigarettes or all hell breaks loose if he doesn’t get his cigarette on time and it was his time for a cigarettes, but I think the staff forgot to bring them assuming we all would be back before his next cigarette break.

But that wasn’t the case, so Cornelius started to have one of his usual tap and tantrums and began to act out at the public pool and thinking that this might be the night that I get luck and score with Cherry I offer to give Cornelius a cigarette from my pack of Du Maurier I think I was smoking at the time, but the staff said no Cornelius can wait, which only made Cornelius escalate that much more to the staff had no choice but to bring us all back to Palmer home, therefore me and Cherry didn’t get to have sex in the public pool unisex bathroom as we both hope.

 

Second time me and Cherry tried to have sex was at the park down the street from Palmer home where mostly all the Palmer residents hang out. I believe it was a nice hot spring day and I and Cherry were making out on the park bench when a huge shadowy figure eclipsed us like a solar eclipse and at this time I had an erection or a boner, but Cherry at the last minute moved out of the way and this female resident who has always had a crush on me, but I didn’t ever feel the same way for her as this might sound shallow but I am not into overweight females, but this female resident inconveniently sat on my erection basically killing the mood and me being pissed off I confronted her boyfriend at the time who was a male resident living in Palmer, who was also at the park sliding down on the park’s slide and I asked him why are you guys here? To which he replied my girlfriend wanted to go to the park and to make things more awkward and unusual he told me Cherry and his girlfriend is supposedly dating and I replied back what the fuck????! What do you meaning dating? He replied back like they are two lesbians only for me to believe that Cherry was mad at me and probably still holding a grudge against me because of how I told her a while ago how I would fuck Betty-Lynn when we were playing Monopoly and she asked me when Betty-Lynn the female attractive staff went out for her smoke break and phone call that Betty-Lynn got her cellphone when I thought at the time it was a hypothetical not an interrogation tactic question when I was being honest with Cherry and didn’t think she would get so angry with me and still hold a grudge against me for something that was so childish and petty and more importantly I apologize for and tried numerous times to make it right, but Cherry is one of those girls that I found out while I was dating her that she was vindictive and vengeful assuming why she went behind my back and lesbian relationship with this fat unattractive female Palmer resident, but I went along with it but I had my doubts all along which this female staff name Lorna who was a big bible thumper attacked me on not getting with the times and being bias by being against Cherry’s  lesbian relationship. Hell! I remember this one time where Chad told Cherry how I wouldn’t go down on a woman orally do to my weak stomach to smells and taste as I know that women pee, poo and bleed from their vagina and anal therefore I am opposed to putting my face anywhere near a women’s pussy and Chad told this to Cherry in hopping he could score points with her if he wasn’t already having sex with Cherry being that clearly while dating me she made herself sexually available to everyone in Palmer plus her sexual nightly phone calls to her underage foster brother didn’t help though she kept saying it was platonic and that nothing serious was ever between them. But Cherry confronted me about not wanting to go down orally on a woman, but asked me you wouldn’t mind me if I went down on you and gave you a blowjob and I said no I wouldn’t mind at all and Cherry says why? Because that’s your mouth and I am not forcing or inquiring you to go down on me therefore it is your choice, well Lorna the staff overheard this conversation and called me a hypocrite and told me that I am a chauvinistic pig as Lorna was against Cherry going down on me, but as I told Cherry I also told Lorna the same thing as well if Cherry wants to go down on me and give me a blowjob that’s her choice, her mouth as I am not holding a gun to her head and forcing her, but Lorna missed the point and kept on verbally attacking me, also I remember one time me putting a flashlight down this fat ugly girl’s mouth, basically Cherry’s lesbian partner and joking around by screaming down her throat “Hey Cherry if you can hear me down there? Don’t forget to take a shower before coming to my place if you still are? Which Cherry never did come over to my apartment not until the second night before I was to move out from Palmer due to me being 23 years old and have obviously aged out as Palmer keeps residents until they are 21 years old but I and a few were the acceptation.

 

Also Cherry would conveniently take showers when I was supposed to leave Palmer home and go back to my 100 Cedar avenue Richmond Hill apartment as I had to leave around 11 o clock when the nightshift staff come on as that was a part of my agreement when I visited Palmer on my schedule days, but Cherry would always wanted me to give her a goodnight kiss before I left and she would always come to the bathroom door in a towel and being that she was a very attractive young 19 year old girl it took every little bit of strength not to rip off her towel as most of the male residence want me to and I knew why, but I never did.

 

Also Cherry liked to flirt with the male residence and get me jealous and upset and I remember this one time where Cornelius was clearly hitting on Cherry in front of me at the dinner table in Palmer and it anger me so much that I got up and man handle Cornelius and put him up against the wall where they had all the numbers to call and I punished the wall leaving a whole and told Cornelius that would be your head next time if you hit on my girlfriend Cherry again and the sad thing is, is that Cherry got off on getting me jealous and upset that I think Cherry liked seeing me get angry, but whatever right?

 

Now to that unfortunate Saturday at my apartment that I can’t forget or let go due to how Palmer having a prejudice history and how you’re easily labelled and stigmatize and how this is put on your public group home records for the rest of your life though somehow I got luck and maybe because a male resident from Palmer’s past ended up having his whole life ruin by this scandal as Tim the male resident had this unfortunately happened to him that he has from my knowledge never recovered from and that was a rape allegation which almost became my fate as well thanks to Cherry. As Tim was in the middle of having sex with one of the ugly female’s residence and the Palmer staff were having their usual staff meeting when I guest went upstairs as I wasn’t there for this as I was there to hear the aftermath of this and why Tim lived temporary Palmer’s first adult apartment program that got later shut down and where I and someone else became recipients of our own independent apartment program but that doesn’t happen until much later when I met Cherry  and supposedly Tim got caught with his pants down having sex with a female resident and when they were pulled apart and interrogated for their side of the story the female to get herself out of hot water cried rape and before you knew it poor Tim was blamed and arrested and charged only for the staff to later on find out it was all a lie conjured up by the female and her partner in crime Chad as I overheard Chad confess and brag about how easy it was to get away with framing Tim for rape while Chad was having one of his smoke breaks and I told the staff but it was too late for the staff to take any action therefore Tim’s charges later on got dropped but a little too late unfortunately as Tim was already victimized and stigmatized by this rape accusation and now fast forward to me and Cherry 3 years later where Cherry tried pulling off the same stun with the help no other than Chad who thought it would be successful all over again but not the case fortunately for me as I dodged a bullet.

 

But see it was Saturday afternoon and I finally convinced Cherry not knowing of her malevolent and sinister plan that that waited for me to come over to my apartment and which Cherry did, as I intend on having sex with Cherry, but again I didn’t know of her malevolent, twisted and sinister plan to make me her fall guy as I was naive and dumb at this point, I bring her back to my place hoping to get luck while I asked Cherry once or twice do you want to have sex? No answer from Cherry so I backed off only a half hour in and us watching Star Trek Voyager episode on my TV that only got channels through a TV antenna as I had no cable do to me not being able to pay off my Roger’s box bill therefore Roger’s cut my cable services way before I met Cherry thanks to Chad ordering gay porn and running up my Roger bill to 800 dollars, but my friend Duke who also lived in Palmer gave me an old TV he found and fixed up as Duke love dumpster diving for old electronics fixing them up and then reselling them. While like I said basically a half an hour later when a commercial came on Cherry turns to me asks me I thought you wanted sex? And I replied yes I did but you never said anything and Cherry says back body language did and I said jokingly not knowing that I might have plant this idea in her head, do you know how many rapists have used body  language as their excuse for why they raped a women as I sarcastically said it and also I am not dumb and you’re not a mute therefore you can give me a verbalize respond if you want to have sex with me or not and Cherry said yes and took me by the had to my bedroom as I didn’t know the ringer on my house phone was on as I usually out of habit keep my phone off as the residence like to call me night and day and harass all hours and plus I like sleeping in the day time as I am a Nighthawk or night owl that stays up all night and I don’t go to be until the early morning, but as I found out later on my phone ringer was on that day, but me and Cherry were in my bedroom and being that Cherry is the only second women I have been with I was a little gun shy, but as soon as Cherry  pulled her pants down half way and showed me her tits I was good to go but stupid me I forgot to wear a condom and as I was inside her my phone began to ring nonstop and I tried to ignore it, but my phone just kept on ringing and ringing until I told Cherry I’ve gotta pick up my phone see whoever this is and see what they want, so I pulled out of her and went to pick up my ringing phone and it turned out to be her staff from Palmer home calling informing to bring her back right now and I said trying to be discreet and told the staff I am in the middle of something right now can I bring Cherry back later and the staff said no, you either bring back now or I’ll called the cops and I said for what? I’m just up the street from you guys as I was getting defensive and the staff still demand Cherry  to come home or I’ll called the cops and say either Cherry  has A-walled or you are holding her hostage and I said find I am bringing Cherry back right now than got off the phone and told Cherry the staff want you back at Palmer right now so we have to go and I went to my bathroom and finished myself off and sprayed her and myself with AXE body spray to try to cover up the smell of sex and head back to Palmer home as soon as me and Cherry have arrived we were barraged and interrogated first the staff asked her questions on why she was late while I waited for my turn in Chad’s bedroom upstairs in Palmer and Chad says to me you guys must have had sex if you both reek of Axe and I said yes than it was my turn to go into the staff office and answer questions and the first and only question the staff asked me is did I wear a condom? And I said it’s not your business if I wore a condom while the staff kept repeating the question over and over until paranoia kicked in and I said does Cherry have a STD I should be worried about? And the staff kept saying that’s confidential you would have to ask Cherry and I replied back sarcastically like Cherry is going to tell me if she has an STD? As residences are vindictive and looking for payback therefore Cherry would never be honest with me and the staff asked me again did I wear a condom? That’s when I got angry and said if you guys are going to tell me that Cherry has a STD than when I am on my eventual death bed I am going to go Columbine on your guy’s ass and killed every one of you mother fuckers before I die and the staff panic and said no Cherry doesn’t have an STD than what? The staff’s says that Cherry hasn’t been taking her birth control pills and then I went and confronted Cherry about not taking her birth control pills and for some reason Cherry was on this wanting a baby agenda and Cherry says to me I would make a great father but I told Cherry I don’t want a baby and no I wouldn’t make a great father as I am broke, secondly my family has bad genes and she replied I also have bad genes in my family, but Cherry nothing like my family! As there’s a good chance that the child could be Down syndrome or suffer from autism or learning disabilities or worst the child could grow up to be a pedophile or Canada’s next serial killer like my father who is a bad man. After that Cherry backed off and I apologized and bought her pop and went downstairs to sleep on Palmer’s couch where Cherry came downstairs and asked me do you want to have sex here at Palmer because it’s just you and me down here and I said no because if we get caught they will kick me out as well kick you out and we would be both be homeless if we get caught.

 

Well Monday came and me and Betty-Lynn were packing up my stuff to move to Community Living on April 30th basically Betty-Lynn’s birthday, so while I was packing up Gail the staff came in and started asking me all these bizarre questions, did I forced myself in anyway when I was having sex with Cherry? Did I force Cherry to have sex with me against her will as I went from being confused to being paranoid because I recalled this once happing to another Palmer resident named Tim and how it didn’t work out for him as well I notice a cop cruiser outside my window and Betty-Lynn told Gail that Curtis wouldn’t hurt a fly as I have known him for 7 years and this is the first time I have ever heard of this and if it wasn’t for Betty-Lynn standing for me that day I don’t know what my future would be, while I packed up while watching the cop cruiser and Betty-Lynn kept on insuring me that the cop isn’t here for me and Betty-Lynn was right.

 

While later on that night the staff wanted me to come over for me and Chad’s goodbye party and I kept saying no and if I go over them in my current state of mind I might end up doing something that will get me charge by the police and that’s bash in Cherry’s skull if that bitch crosses my path, but the staffs kept on insisting that I go and I said you’re not worry about Cherry’s safety? And the staffs all said no while one staff took me to a store and bought me a few T-shirts, a CD Walkman and my favorited Eminem album the original Marshall Mathers LP album and therefore the staff bribing me to go I went and while the staff was cutting the cake Zed another staff pulled me aside and said how come you and Cherry are talking? And I said because the bitch tried setting me for rape so to me the bitch is better off dead and Zed told me that it was a miscommunication on the staffs part and not on Cherry’s end plus you two looked so good together as a couple and plus Curtis she the only girl you can get, so you don’t want to blow you chance on a miscommunication and alleged rape accusation, so I went and knocked on Cherry’s room to bring her a slice of the cake and Cherry in tears tells me she is sorry and that she didn’t mean to hurt me and like usual I bought into it when I shouldn’t have but I did stupidly and I stupidly took her back thinking that she was really sorry not knowing that this was all a sick game to her so therefore we made up and she thought I was still mad at her so to prove to her that I wasn’t upset I let her borrow my CD Walkman and my new Eminem album original the Marshall Mathers LP along with my new T-shirt not knowing that I was getting played the whole time by Cherry and that when we officially broke up and I had to give back her stuff which was only a picture of her and me sitting on the steps outside of Palmer home while she stole my all of my stuff, my CD Walkman and more importantly my Eminem album which nowadays I assumed Cherry  with her absolute hate towards me probably threw out all my shit not that I care and more as it’s the past and I have replaced my copy of Eminem’s album and on top of that I found out that Chad and Cherry both planed and conspired this rape accusation against me, as Chad told me that nobody likes me and everybody hated me and more importantly Cherry hates me the most which nowadays that’s not hard to believe that Cherry  conspired with Chad to try to get rid of me as Cherry hates me now but I can say it’s 100 percent accurate other than Chad has tried to frame other Palmer residences in the past more notably Tim with a rape accusation.

 

Now Break up and Aftermath

 

Now after Cherry’s infamous rape accusation and I stupidly took her back, I recall this one time right after I moved out of Palmer home straight into Community Living and I was heartbroken and sad for leaving all my friends behind, but more importantly Cherry behind I called Palmer home at night time and the overnight staff Lorna picked up and we spoke for a few seconds before informing me that Cherry was crying which I didn’t know was nothing but crocodile tears as I thought they were real I know stupid of me right? But I really cared about Cherry and I wanted to make things work out between us though that was never Cherry’s intentions as I later on found out. But Cherry was crying those infamous crocodile tears that I didn’t know was a work as I believe Cherry’s tears were real at the time and Lorna tells me that Cherry is upset and crying and said why? Because she misses you id my understanding as I guess that’s what Cherry told Lorna and I and Lorna believed it at the time, well Lorna passes the phone to Cherry who’s really putting Oscar-winning performance with those infamous crocodile tears and me trying to be supportive asked Cherry what will make you happy as Cherry ironically was worried that I was going to cheat on her and leave her though Cherry made a career of pulling the wool over my eyes and constantly cheating on me with every guy that came her way, but she was under this impression at the time saying the other Palmer residences were making these outrageous rumors that I am going to cheat on her when that was never my intention but whatever right? I stupidly went along with it to prove to her that I had no intentions of cheating on her with anyone I mean come on I mean I took Cherry back after she accused me of rape and I know the worst mistake I ever did I wished I had a time machine but I sadly don’t as Cherry gave me all these ridiculous demands of me calling her and visiting as much as I could plus I stayed on the phone until 5 in the morning with Cherry trying to cheer her and make her laugh with one of my corny jokes because I wanted Cherry to be in a good place as I know now looking back on it was one of my worst mistakes ever and a waste of both me and Cherry’s time especially now that I realized her  infamous crocodile tears was all an elaborate scheme to feed on my emotions and kindness.

 

While after that infamous night phone call with Cherry of me speaking to her for hours to insured her that I wasn’t going to cheat on her, but the first month which was May 2008 Cherry answered all of my phone calls and we even went to the movies to see Pineapple Express a stupid drug comedy movie that I am not into but I compromised and took a bullet for her though it was one of the most awkward encounters I’ve had as this staff name Slava creepily chauffeured us around all night as he drove us to the movie theater as Slava the staff wouldn’t let me or Cherry kiss or hold hands or even sit next to each other and if one of us had to go to the bathroom the other one would have to wait their turn until the other one came back. Hell! I and Cherry weren’t even allowed to have eye contact with one another unless Slava had approved of it. Which I think also might have caused the downfall of me and Cherry’s relationship as Slava was more than a overprotected bodyguard, as Slava I felt was out to sabotage me and Cherry’s relationship by any means necessary. As Slava was like Ned Flanders from the Simpsons episode called to Surveil with Love, Slava’s intentions might have meant well, but he came off more like a creepy uncle in the end, though I don’t think it really mattered in the end when it came to me and Cherry’s relationship as our relationship was doomed from the get go, this Slava memory just adds more layers to this cake that is me and Cherry’s doomed and gloomed relationship anyways plus I am not even certain if Cherry and our doomed relationship was even real or a figment of my imagination being that if Cherry was a real person and not a figment of my imagination Cherry was always a con artist that preyed on my kindness and emotions and because I just somewhat got out of a bad sticky relationship with another Palmer resident female relationship, maybe being that I am a very creative person with a wild imagination I might have unintentionally created this fictitious person I named Cherry to give my ego a needed boosted, as I felt like Homer Simpson in Don’t Fear the Roofer episode where Homer was the only one who could see the roofer Ray Romano as everyone else until the end of the episode thought it was Homer’s figment of imagination and that’s how I can mostly described mine and Cherry’s relationship if you can call it that? As I am still somewhat dumbfounded and traumatized by me and Cherry’s so called relationship because by June 2008 that’s when I came to my senses and realized that Cherry was conning me all along. Because after seeing Pineapple Express with Cherry and that’s when the blinders were truly off and Cherry reviled her true nature or as Eminem once put it “Can the real slim shady please stand up?” or in this case can the real Cherry please stand up? And she did or like the Exorcist movie when the priest asked the devil or demon to reveal itself and Cherry did just do that as I was introduced to the real Cherry and not this victim that she originally made herself out to be, but the con artist succubus that she is.

 

As I recalled back in June of 2008 as Cherry inquired of me to do I would visit and call her as she asked me to, so she knows that I am not cheating on her and by June Cherry was playing this phone tag and now at first it might have come off as Cherry was busy at least to the naked eye to how it was seen, but that wasn’t ever the case as she had one of her fan club Palmer resident speak on her behalf well in the background Cherry was feeding this Palmer resident his lines by telling as if I am stupid that Cherry isn’t home when truly Cherry was home, but just like my last relationship Cherry was having affair behind my back with this guy that she is currently getting engaged to as I found out  much later and was secretly in a scandalous relationship with him without giving me any heads up, but I realized that Cherry’s behaviour was very suspicious the way she kept on blowing me off as if I did something wrong when I never did, other than my biggest mistake was me forgiving and taking her back after she tried to frame me with a rape accusation that was never true as Cherry was on probation by Palmer home for her alleged sexual relationship with a minor that was her foster brother that got her kicked out of her foster home and placed into Palmer group home’s care and when I attempted to have sex with Cherry not knowing that I was going to get blue balled for my efforts, plus Cherry was on this baby kick as Palmer’s staff reviled to me that Cherry wasn’t taking her birth control pills than basically the next day when Palmer was going to consequence and punish her for being late by taking away a few weeks of her Community time and ground her to Palmer home or her bedroom as she wasn’t allowed to go outside do to her being late as she was only allowed a few hours outside of Palmer if the staff permitted and approved it as long as Cherry comes back on her scheduled time to take her meds as I didn’t know that Cherry was on probation until afterwards, as Cherry was getting handed her punished by Palmer on the following Monday after I had sex with her on Saturday and thought that she was on some baby kick, but it turns out she had something more sinister in mind to get herself out of hot water by telling Palmer’s staff the reason why she was late is because she was being held hostage and being held against her will and that I was allegedly raping her is why she came back late, being that was never the case because as I said before I asked Cherry if she wanted to have sex? And Cherry never respond back to me therefore I left it alone only for her a half hour later while we our watching Star Trek Voyager episode she asked me I thought that you wanted to have sex? And I replied I do but you never answered me at all so therefore I assumed that you didn’t than Cherry replies back to me something to do with her body language and I told her that I know you can speak, I’m not stupid and you’re not a mute plus do you know how many rapists have used the body language defends to say why they raped this person therefore Cherry is it a yes or a no on wanting to have sex with me? Cherry said yes and took me by the hand back to my bedroom and well I assumed that my ringer was off as usually my ringer is I headed with Cherry to my bedroom but unfortunately do to so much time passing by plus the fact that Cherry was my only second sexual encounter I was gun shy or nervous as I at first couldn’t get erected until I saw some of Cherry’s lady parts as she only pulled her pants half way down and showed me her tits but didn’t take off her shirt or bra ever and on top of that I forgot the Trojan condom that was sitting on my radiator as I didn’t have a bed just a mattress on the floor, but as I said I got blue balled as my phone kept on ringing and ringing to where I told Cherry I had to pick up this ringing phone which turned out to be her Palmer staff demanding me to bring Cherry back to where I went into the bathroom finished myself off and also told Cherry that her staff want her back home right now and so I did and then I got confronted by the Palmer staff if I wore a condom several times until I freaked out and made a columbine death threat statement assuming that Cherry had an STD that the Palmer staff were not telling me do to Palmer’s home’s confidential agreement where the staff told me that Cherry hasn’t being taking her birth control pills only for me to find out that Cherry’s birth control pills was a cover up to this alleged rape allegation so Cherry who love painting herself as a victim and loves to put the blame on everyone but herself tried to make me her fall guy so her Community time was it taken away for her being late and then I find out later on that Cherry and Chad conspired and conjured up this alleged rape accusation to stick it to me because they both don’t like me and wanted to get rid of me and this was the only thing that they could come up at the time plus Chad was always had a infatuation for Cherry and this was Chad and Cherry’s way to supposedly get me out of the way so Chad could have Cherry to himself.

 

There was this one time I recall where everybody went to see Kevin Spacey’s 21 movies where Chad alleged that him and Cherry who both by the way as I recall were sitting in the middle while the two staff Zed and Lorna were sitting between them. But Chad claims that once the lights went out in the movie theater that Cherry gave him a blowjob while supposedly in front of two staff Zed and Lorna and that Zed and Lorna just ignored it as if it never happen as Chad would brag to us residences after the movie was finished only for me to be the only one to poke holes in his so called blowjob story while everyone who was there accept maybe a few believed to this day that Chad got a blowjob by my ex-girlfriend Cherry and as much as it might be unlikely and Chad is just trying to make noise, but Cherry by nature did acted like a slut and did mislead most of the male residences, plus the alleged affairs with be with her minor foster brother she had sex with or with her classmates in her school or Cherry’s lesbian relationship with one of the female residences or her going behind my back and was engaging in a secret relationship with a guy that she claims that she met online that ended up being my replacement in the end, all because he drove a yellow knocked off sports car Mitsubishi Eclipse Spyder I believe or because he had his parents guilt money that pays for his cushy lifestyle, his rent and Cherry rent  and all the things that most of us have to work for to get she gets it for free as Cherry is nothing more now than a freeloader,  just like when she was with me she portend to be a victim of  circumstances as Cherry one told me she was in this alleged car accident with her underage foster brother that she was having sex with as they both stole her foster parents car and took it out for a joy ride only to crash it into a street light post and Cherry claims this to be true if you was to look at Cherry you would notice that she has no identifiable car accidents scars that I assume comes with a car accident, also Cherry  told me that her foster family used to lock her in their basement as well that her foster dad was raping her every night and that her foster mother supposedly knew about it but did nothing other than give her blessing on it, though I don’t know if this is Cherry just playing the victim card or if any of these terrible things actually happened to her as she claims and I found this out is because she wanting my blessing on her poems and wanted my writing tips at the time and I told her if you want to be taken as a serious writer like me than you need to be honest with your art and fans is what I told Cherry, not knowing that this was one of her many cons  and that Cherry had no ambition to be a writer it was her sticking out her feelers to see if she found one of my weakness so Cherry can exploit and use it in her pulling the wool over my eyes when we dated briefly back in 2008, as she played her con game for a while for at least 3 weeks in June because when I’d visited Cherry she would strangely distance herself and come up with all these excuses that she was busy with school work, but really what I think was going on and eventually found out was Cherry was having a secret affair with this rich guy she found online named Ken who as I said before drove a knock off sports car Mitsubishi Eclipse Spyder and had his parents guilt money to send on Cherry as I found out the hard way is that Cherry was one of those superficial kind of girls or gold diggers as some might refer them as either way she was only with and still with this guy based on his wealth so she can sponge off of him as Cherry later on with my doing of having the other residences of Palmer as my surrogates that I had everyone bullied her, where Cherry fear for her life because the female residences were jealous and insecure as I exploited their common fears of her stealing their boyfriends away because on the flip side I told all the male residences how easy Cherry was sexually so basically I had her run into this guy’s arms when she turned 21 years old as I made as I made her year and a half a living nightmare where she would lock herself in her room as a recluse as I made Cherry feel unwelcome in Palmer home after all the underhanded things she did to me in our twisted relationship as I am a very vindictive person when I feel cheated and manipulated and that’s what Cherry did to me throughout our short lived history.

 

Again I didn’t know our relationship was over than I had a suspicious feeling that it was and Cherry clarified that when weeks after her phone game of having her fan club of male horny residences talk on her behalf while she directed them in what to say while she was always in the background, having them tell me she’s not there when clearly I can hear her in the background, but do to me being voiceless and powerless in this situation as Palmer staff made it clear to me that I no longer live or associated and that Cherry was their main priority and if I didn’t like it than Palmer home staff will have my phone number blocked if this becomes a problem therefore automatically siding with Cherry even if Cherry is being abusive towards me as Palmer home allowed Cherry to play her sick phone cat and mouse like phone game with me for three weeks in June of 2008 before Palmer finally got her to actually stop playing her phone games and speak to me and I said hi, and when Cherry didn’t respond back I said sarcastically it looks like we have broken up? And Cherry replied back with Yeap! Like she was Dave from Storage Wars TV show but only with one Yeap before hanging up and never giving me a reason why she broke it off with me other than Cherry fuelled my theories why, so after Cherry broke it off with me I headed to a bar near where I lived came back and found her cell number and portend to be drunk so I can air out my grievances on her voicemail as I called her every derogatory and inflammatory female remark I could think of like the classics slut, whore, tramp and then I went on a religious rant in saying I hope Cherry you burn in hell! Also to play up the fact that I was drunk so I made it seem like a drunk rant, but here is a funny fact about me I don’t drink anything with alcohol plus if I drink I keep an eye on my limit of how much I have drank plus the drinks I order are daiquiri this pink Pepto Bismol drink that I specifically asked the bar tender to only put a littler rum in my drinks as I am not big on alcohol making my drunken voicemail seem like I am in a drunk state but my plan was too get even with Cherry and maybe get the last word in, but the Palmer staff told me that Cherry wanted to charge me with verbal assault but the staff were able on one condition that I don’t ever call Cherry’s personal cellphone again or her on Palmer’s kids line that I stay away from her and don’t interacted with her at all which I did what they asked of me and threw away her personal cellphone number, instead what I should have done is wrote her cell number on a public bathroom stall and let all the pervs called her since she always made herself in our relationship as always sexually available like she was an escort business or a brothel anyways. But that however that didn’t stop me from turning her friends against her and basically and eventually systematically all of Palmer home as well, forcing her hand to prematurely without weighing her other options to run into the arms of her rich Prince Charming or maybe in this case, sorry Cinderella! But her ugly rich stepsister’s arms, if the rumors that I’ve heard are true and that is that he is a control freak and abusive either emotionally or physically or both, so I guess karma in a way has finally caught up with her, but again I doubt that very much so.

 

 

See in June or July of 2008 after it was public that I and Cherry have broken up Chad who as I have said before as always had a sick obsessive infatuation for Cherry trying to make his move on her and not that I care or is it my business who Cherry goes out with as it’s her life and not mine, but in this case it became my business as Chad reviled to me that he was going on Palmer home’s yearly camping trip only to fuck Cherry and stick it to me as Chad was a very jealous person especially of me because Chad always wanted Cherry to himself and if I knew what Cherry plans were with me, as her love for me was never real just a figment of my imagination as Cherry solely dated me because of my status in Palmer home that’s why I believed why Cherry deliberately sabotaged our relationship right from the get go with her first offense of plagiarizing my poems, her ongoing inappropriate sexual relationship with her underage foster brother that she kept saying was only platonic though I always had my doubts or the several times of her infidelity be if it was a guy she met in her high-school or her now current rich guy she is with now with his knocked off yellow sports car or her leading on the males residences in Palmer home or her short lived lesbian affair with one of the female residences or more importantly her alleged and false rape allegation, if I knew all these things prior before our infamous relationship started I would have not fight for her or got in the way or threw my hat in the ring for a shot, as I would have just let Chad have her all to himself, only if I had a time machine to erase this infamous crime scene and rewrite history, but sorry Chad I can’t change the circumstances back then, but I wished I could than we all would be happy and none of this bull shit that was me and Cherry’s relationship wouldn’t have ever taken place, but unfortunately I can’t change that even if I wanted, either way I who hates going camping especially with Palmer because most of the kids are immature and annoying either for making annoying noises when everybody tried to sleep, bring drugs to the camp site where cops were mostly called every day or constantly arguing and bickering and getting into fights, plus on top of that there is really nothing meaning no TV, no PlayStation or Xbox 360 nothing a bunch of hooligans, nature and outhouses, that’s why Farrah granted my wish one year not to go camping and founded it weird that all the suddenly I wanted to go and she and the rest of Palmer home assumed that I wanted to go because of Cherry and hoping that I could fixed our broken relationship but I told Farrah one of the supervisors of Palmer home that I was done with Cherry and my only reason is because Chad told me that he wanted to sleep or fuck Cherry to get back at me and I wanted a place where I can dump his body, because I told Chad that the Cherry wound was still fresh and hasn’t become a scar yet so Chad please back off before I do something that we both will come to regret only one of us will actually get to feel it while the other one will be in a shallow grave if you don’t take the hit or warning I am giving you, But Chad one of those assholes that loves rubbing salt in your wounds as Chad enjoy other people’s suffering, so therefore I told Farrah of Chad’s plan where Farrah told Chad he also couldn’t go camping either, which might have disappointed Cherry but she probably she had sex with Chad anyways if not camping then somewhere else since Cherry made Chad her number two choice to date in Palmer home if I didn’t throw my name into the hat and won her heart over which again was one of my life’s biggest mistakes I ever made, as all of the hell Cherry put me through in the end wasn’t worth it ever if I had my way to rewrite history.

 

Than someone on Facebook once questioned my authenticity of my love for Cherry that you can’t fall in love with someone in 3 and a half or close to 4 months he said, but being in close quarters with someone who makes you believe that they relate to you when really they don’t, because see Cherry put on a mask throughout out our whole relationship and yeah I was gullible and I guess a doormat as well for Cherry, because every time Cherry lashed out I assumed it was her trust issues from her so called past of some of the things she once told me like her foster dad raped her under the foster family’s care and how the mother supposedly went along with it until Cherry was caught with her pants down fucking her underage foster brother that got Cherry kicked out of her last foster home, plus how her foster home would lock her in their basement as her punishment and I know how abusive foster homes can be from my own personal experience and maybe that why I became more compassionate for her lies but I stupidly believed at the time as it was the truth, as I didn’t know that Cherry was jerking my chain around at the time and that she was a scam artist just toying with my emotions and compassion for Cherry’s gain at my expense as a Rolling Stones song Sympathy for the Devil reminds me of what kind of person Cherry was, just a devil taking advantage of someone’s misfortune in this case it was mine that Cherry took advantage of with her so called damage persona or façade that she put on at the time.

 

The alleged rape accusation and why I am still angry

 

See Cherry when I brought her back to Palmer home as her staff requested, I found out through her staff that she hasn’t been taking her birth control pills and Cherry was hung up about wanting a baby as she informed when I questioned her on why were you stop taking your birth control pills? And Cherry told me that she wanted a baby and said that I would be a perfect father, but when I gave her a really check at the time on why I wouldn’t be a great father for her baby that Cherry at the time supposedly wanted, as Cherry did take well to rejection as the rape accusation was a result of that because 48 hours later she was telling Farrah this fabricated lie of how I forced myself onto her when that wasn’t ever the case, as I have said before I asked her if she wanted to have sex with me? And Cherry never respond back, so I backed off, only for Cherry in a middle of a Star Trek Voyager episode asked me I thought that you wanted sex? And I replied I do, but you never answered me and she says I did with my body language and I told her that I am not stupid and you’re not a mute and do you know how many rapists have used body language as their defend and reason why they raped, than the next thing I know I was under a rape investigation by Palmer home and if you knew how easy it is for someone like me to be labeled and stigmatized, you would understand my anger and hatred for Cherry, because my life could have been over and I could have been seen and put on the sex offender registry that could have furthered ruined my life as I would have been held to this stigma for the rest of my life if the odds weren’t in my favour at the time of her absurd and outrageous claims, plus if Cherry would have gotten her wish and I did end up getting her pregnant. I would have been locked into a custody battle to get rights to see my kid where I don’t need that headache plus I don’t think that is fair to the child as well, plus it turned out that Cherry and Chad concocted this rape accusation to get rid of me like in the same manner Chad helped another female residence to frame Tim and destroy his life, plus Cherry was using this  rape accusation as excuse for why she came back late for her curfew and tried to use this rape accusation as her leverage so she fabricated this rape accusation the whole time and then it turned out that there was either a miscommunication or misunderstanding on Palmer staff’s part so that’s what Zed told me when he laid his guilt trip me on why I should take Cherry back and I stupidly did, only for her to give me her crocodile tears and her phoney list of demands because Cherry had this twisted idea that I was going to cheat on her now that I was no longer associated Palmer home, therefore Cherry’s true colors and nature came out as she washed her hands of me as I came to realized that I was just another cattle being lead to the slaughterhouse or death maze to be lined up for a bullet to my head and have my integrity and pride displayed like meat in a grocery store and that there was ultimately nothing that I could have said or have done that would have alter my fate as I was only livestock to her to be ultimately lead to the slaughter, in her game that was her death maze, plus like a solider that just came back from war she left me with shell shock or post-traumatic stress disorder or better known as PTSD as Cherry didn’t just murdered my integrity and pride  but also my confidence  leaving me to suffer with depression, suicidal thoughts, loneliness  and abandonment issues, but for most of you reading this you don’t see anything wrong with that! It’s just water under the bridge to you guys right? Because hey from your guys’ logic I could just pick where I left off and start all over again right? I wished it was that easy but it’s not, because of Cherry and other circumstances in my life I haven’t been able to move on with my life, hell! Because of my abandonment and trust issues I haven’t dated anyone in over nine years or been in another sexual relationship if anything I remain reclusive, but no what Cherry and her rape accusation did was just pure innocent right? No harm no foul right? I’m just overreacting and making something more than what it really was right? Because to you guys my life means nothing because in yours and group home’s racial profiling ways is that I deserve this fate plus I’m a burden to society and to everybody, a trouble maker with no future in you asked some of my past staff. But Cherry had the right to lead me blindly to the slaughter and rape me literally of my life because I am just expendable right?

 

Plus Cherry was like Eric Cartman from South Park’s Humancentipad episode when Cartman wants the latest Apple IPod but his mother tells him that she can’t afford it, So Cartman starts making these absurd sexual accusations in the Best Buy store because Cartman wasn’t getting what he wanted, as that’s almost the same thing that Cherry did when I told her that I didn’t want a baby and I even gave her many good reasons on why but the next thing I know in 48 hours later on Monday she’s making a false alleged rape accusation towards me, all because Cherry couldn’t handle and mistook what I said as a rejection and plus Cherry wasn’t getting want she wanted and Cherry was very obsess about wanting a baby at least at that time from my understanding, but like I said before there are other reasons behind Cherry’s absurd false alleged rape accusation.

 

The reunion from hell

 

See it was the end of January and the beginning of February when Cherry befriended me on Facebook and sent me a friend request and to the naked eye everything seemed right in the world when obviously I was wrong, after me and Cherry went our separate ways for about or more than five years me and Cherry didn’t talk until an ex-Palmer resident showed me her Facebook page and at first I didn’t think much of it, but there was this little part of me that was curious to see how Cherry was doing, but there was this fear, nervousness and paranoia being that our past is shaky, as Cherry hates my guts for whatever lame excuse she had conjured up in our relationship that she sabotaged from the beginning, but I muster up the strength not thinking that she would replied back to me as I quickly assumed that she would delete and block me anyways, so I didn’t see the harm in messaging her, because the chance of Cherry getting back to me was slim to nothing, so I took the risk anyways under my Songbird gimmick that was my Facebook account at the time and portend that I was looking for an old friend and even deliberately misspelled her name, hoping that my ruse would work and somehow to my surprised it worked as specifically she knew it was me and even question me if I am her old boyfriend though I never answered as I tried to steer the conversation in a different direction, but eventually she figured me out anyways when I informed her about a Palmer staff that she knew personally of their controversial passing and even let her know that Zed another Palmer  staff died of cancer not knowing that cancer would be my bleak future several months later, while when I thought that we had left on a good note I saw one of my spelling mistakes and I wanted to fix it and resend it only to find out after 6 hours of talking with Cherry that Cherry had blocked me on Facebook, anyways my Songbird account which didn’t use my real name got shut down by Facebook without giving me a reason why even when I tried to verify myself and send them all the ID that Facebook required Facebook still shut my account down for what they called suspicious activity either way I opened another Facebook account and another 2 or 3 years passed before I would talk to Cherry again, this time I was going through my Cancer treatments for the second time as for August 2015 the cancer doctor informed me that my so called curable cancer is back and afraid that my time was limited or that I had a pending death sentence waiting for me, I informed as many people that I have bad blood with my heartfelt sincere apology for anything I might have done, basically only my two controversial ex-girlfriends from Palmer home ever got back to me, one didn’t wanted to believe it as she is afraid of death and change even when I showed her pics of me at the hospital hooked to a cancer machine she still didn’t want to accepted it as she asked me not to send her anymore pics or talk about my death and I respected her wished while the other one name Cherry 6 months later at the end of January 2016 almost seven months later in February 2016 as I only had one more cancer treatment of arsenic to go before my last cancer treatment called stem cell transplant that I had at the beginning of this year ironically in February of 2017, Cherry messaged me on Facebook giving me this fake get better “ I hope you are one of the lucky ones that kicks cancer’s ass” with a friend request that I know that I shouldn’t have accepted, but then I didn’t know it was one of her ruses, so we talked for days maybe a week or two mostly about stupid things like I saw that she has a PlayStation like me accepted what Cherry told me it wasn’t a PS4 like I have and I told her do you know that soon that PlayStation will stop making games for the PS3 and only make them for the PS4 only, stupid shit like that, than she asked me about my writing and more did I write based on our relationship and stupid me said yes not assuming when I should have especially with our past history and her being or acting like a bipolar the way her mood swings can have her be one minute Jackal than the next she’s Hyde, but forgetting that I say yes Cherry I wrote poems based on our relationship and even shared her the nicest ones I had or basically PG because I know how easy it is to upset her and I didn’t want to provoke her in anyway, plus I knew if I had said no that I didn’t write about our relationship, she would have hounded me until she got the answer she wanted, so to cut the middle man out I said yes and showed her some of my poems and long beholds she ends up in the end blocking me based on my poems plus acting if she never did anything wrong, basically pretending to have amnesia and belittling my anger in the process as if I don’t have the right to be angry of how our relationship was even than I stupidly apologized to her for the way I portray her in my poems even though that is outrageous and plus Cherry wanted to open the Pandora’s Box and get my thoughts on our relationship I just stupidly went along with it not thinking that she was going to ultimately block me, even when I tried to talk to her friend on twitter and have her hopefully talked Cherry down even explaining in full detail why Cherry was mad as I told her friend that we had a tumultuous kind of relationship that ended badly instead of Cherry’s friend helping me out she says there’s a reason why Cherry doesn’t wanted to talk to you and told me never to contact her again and also blocked me, once again feeding my obsessive anger.

 

Now the Good Memories or Not

 

See back in 2008 when I and Cherry were dating if that’s what you would call it? Because I am not sure if we actually dated or more likely it was all in my head or a virtual reality simulation as the jury are still out on if me and Cherry ever dated and even I am not sure if we did because she put on such a convincing Oscar-winning performance that the lines between us were so blur I’m still having a hard time telling if it was real or imaginary, hell! I’m not even sure if Cherry was ever a real person to start off if I was to be absolutely honest, as I felt either I was in the Matrix or Leonardo DiCaprio’s Inception or even Reboot the cartoon TV show that used to be on in the 90’s how every time Cherry was around I thought I would hear this voice say “Warning Incoming Game” at least than I would have some fair warning, but that wasn’t ever the case, see Cherry had this dream of being a haircut dresser and a tattoo artist basically open this haircut, tattoo parlor plus I don’t know who was the celebrity it couple of 2008 but every kept referring us as Avril Lavigne and me as Sum 41 and that kept annoying me, so I mashed Cherry’s haircut, tattoo parlor dream and how everyone was referring us as Palmer home’s it couple and came up with Gifted and Twisted her being the gift and me being the twist, but after we broke up I remodelled the Gifted and Twisted moniker or my insignia as my life is twisted and my talents make me gifted and that was how Gifted and Twisted was first introduce when it came on the scene so thanks Cherry for inspiring me, plus I forgot when me and Cherry broke up Palmer help me somewhat patent Gifted and Twisted insuring that Cherry couldn’t use it as her own or Palmer home was going to help me sue the bitch for everything she’s got if she stole my idea and claim it as her though I don’t know how sincere Palmer was, but it came off like Palmer was serious, so therefore from what I assumed Cherry never used my Gifted and Twisted name for any of her future business at least that’s what I keep telling myself.

 

Also if it wasn’t for Cherry’s involvement though I don’t think it truly matters in the end, but the only positive that I can spin out of our twisted relationship and more importantly is that it helps my creative artistic process and writing has always been my first love and the only true thing that I am good at and why Cherry mostly seek me out plus again also because of my status in Palmer as I was the closest thing to a kingpin or a God in Palmer and I know that’s blasphemy but that was the God honest truth and why anyone associated themselves with me and why residences aligned their blind allegiance with me because of their petty jealousy of how Palmer home singled me out with their favouritism, as Palmer home staff would blindly overlook my indiscretions and give me whatever I wanted or my heart desire  and be that I had the respect of Palmer home staff and endless credibility, though nobody in Palmer ever liked me as I was perceived as arrogant and obnoxious, but Palmer home was powerless as all the staff saw in me was pure gold that they wanted to harvest for themselves, therefore why Cherry was ever interested in me because of how superficial Cherry was she was blindly attracted to me like I was gold and she was a gold digger hoping to reap all the benefits for herself  at the expense of me and my household brand that I became to Palmer home that’s the only reason why Cherry was interested in me even if the truth hurts my pride and my confidence but that’s the sad truth if you look for the underline reasoning behind why Cherry dated in the first place, only to  discard me like a piece of garbage after I moved officially move out of Palmer home, hell! If truth be told that’s why mostly everyone in Palmer home eventually washed their hands of me because that’s how fake Palmer home and basically all group homes and foster homes are as I have come to realized that in my many years in the system, I don’t think I ever met one real person in my foster homes or group homes, because the staff like foster home sees me a nothing but a pay cheque while the residences or foster siblings either saw me as an scapegoat or as a stepping stone to further them up the ladder at my expense, therefore I became expendable to mostly everyone in my life even more Cherry who I thought that I had a chance with, but again I was just the cattle blindly being lead to the slaughter or death maze when truth be told.

 

 

Now my opinions on our twisted relationship

 

Also maybe I should apologized in advance because afterwards I am not going to be sympathetic or apologetic once you have read this because that would just be pathetic if that’s what you all expect from me?

 

See when Cherry put up this front of her and this female resident and how they were an item while Cherry was supposedly dating me at the time which makes our relationship all that much more confusing, but the best way I can describe it might come of comical because I don’t know any other way to put it as it was a disrespectful acted on Cherry’s part, but it might I give you all some new insights and understanding of Cherry and how I saw her.

 

See Cherry was dating me at the time while having a lesbian affair with this ugly female resident who looked like Jabba the Hutt from my point of view or in this case I referred this female resident as Jabba the Slut and I know it was mean, but if you were in this awkward situation like I was then maybe you might understand me a little bit more as Palmer home was nothing more than a an ongoing never ending comical skit as I kept finding myself in many awkward situations in my time in Palmer home and this one especially was no different if I was to simplify it, as Cherry was deep in this lesbian relationship and from my eyes it seemed awkward and out-of-place because Cherry in the eyes on everyone in Palmer home was Princess Leia a very attractive female resident while her lesbian partner was the complete opposite and you would have to be desperate or just mentally ill to find this female resident at all attractive because when you saw Cherry and this female resident making out, it was like watching the Star Wars scene when Jabba the Hutt had Princess Leia in a bikini  and on a leash and Luke Skywalk was bargaining for her freedom, so when Cherry told me she had real feelings for this female resident I instinctively scoffed at it and dared Cherry to kiss this female resident to prove her love for this individual as she claimed and when Cherry and her ugly Jabba the Hutt lesbian partner kissed I swear there wasn’t any fireworks more like  Cherry felt awkward and out-of-place, scared, hunched over with her hands in the air as if Cherry was threatened or intimidated by this kiss as if Cherry has never been in a lesbian relationship and I remember how Lorna gave me shit afterwards for questioning and not accepting this outrageous lesbian relationship between Cherry and this female resident that I called Jabba the Hutt or Jabba the Slut, but this was many examples that showed me how fake and superficial my relationship was with Cherry.

 

Another example was when I and Cherry officially broke up, Betty-Lynn the young attractive staff with her cleavage hanging out, playing Monopoly with all the residences in the summer or spring time basically a hot date that I mention earlier that Cherry asked me if I would fuck Betty-Lynn and I didn’t take it as serious as I should have when I told Cherry honestly that I would not knowing that the whole time I was being interrogated and under oath or on a polygraph machine when I told cherry yes I would fuck Betty-Lynn not expecting Cherry to throw a temper tantrum and destroy her bedroom in the process! Yes that Betty-Lynn! While I was still vulnerable, dumbfounded, depressed and heartbroken by how Cherry ended our infamous relationship, Betty-Lynn was the most happiest to hear that me and Cherry broke up which is funny because when Cherry falsely accused me of this outrageous rape accusation Betty-Lynn was on my side, believing me 100 percent that I was innocent as Betty-Lynn came to my defends when I was originally investigated for it by Gail the other female Palmer staff that was working that day plus this all took place even after the fact of me making a sexual admission to Cherry when Cherry posed this question to me while Betty-Lynn was on her smoke break and cellphone the day we were playing Monopoly, so I assumed that Betty-Lynn wasn’t holding a grudge on me for me saying to Cherry that I would fuck Betty-Lynn before turning it into a threesome joke that just irate Cherry that much more, but putting that now foolishly to the past, I might have bitten off more than I could chew because on the flip side of things Betty-Lynn and Cherry celebrated the fact that me and Cherry had broken up, I mean though this never actually happen you could her Beyoncé and Destiny’s Child’s independent woman song playing in the background though this song came out a year later in 2009 , I mean it was like going to a prison and asking famous serial killers like Ted Bundy, Jeff Dahmer, the Unabomber or Charles Manson to name a few for their autographs that how enthusiastic Betty-Lynn was when she got the news that me and Cherry officially broke it off and was going our separate ways after this dog and pony show, scam and sham that Cherry  had put on throughout our 3 months 3 weeks close to 4 month relationship at least that’s how I perceived it to be in my mind.

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Finished but now needs my editor to edit Death Maze chapter inspired by true events of how my #exgirlfriend treated me in our twisted relationship

Son Of Twisted

Death Maze Chapter

 

This Michael Jackson verse from his Dirty Dina song describes my relationship with Cherry

(Verse2)

 

“She likes the boys in the band

She knows when they are coming to town

She’s every musician’s fan

After the curtains come down

She waits for those at the back door

For those who have prestige

Who promise fortune and fame

A life that’s so care free

She’s saying that’s okay

Hey baby, do what you want

I’ll be your night-loving thing

I’ll be the freak you can taunt

And I don’t care what you say

I want to go too far

I’ll be your everything

If you make me a star.”

 

That’s why I believe that Cherry dated me, so I can make her into an overnight star

Based on my popularity at Palmer home do too how Palmer was obsessed with my gifted for writing

And hoping that my talents would put them on the map

That is why Cherry singled me out from rest of the competition because of Palmer’s favouritism

That Palmer especially had for me as Cherry assume if I am getting a free ride why can’t she?

That’s what sparked all of the envious and jealousy and conflict with the other Palmer residents

And why I was used and abused and now why I am blacklisted mostly by everyone in Palmer Home.

 

Because see I was one month away from moving out to Community Living back in March of 2008

And after my last relationship went to hell, I vowed to myself that I wouldn’t date again,

Only to contradict myself as a young blonde hair girl came into Palmer Home

And the first my first impression I had as I thought that she was one of the staff’s daughters.

But I was wrong as she was a new resident or client to my group home.

 

We started to flirt back and forth at first be that she made it abundantly clear

That she has a no dating policy and creepily perceived us all as either her brothers or sisters,

Only for her too later on contradict herself.

 

See all of the male residents or clients were gunning for her, so at first I assumed I didn’t have a chance

Because when I am not writing I don’t have any confidence in myself,

Because what strangely made me popular in this house of horrors is that I have an uncanny ability with words since I was 12 years old, but all of my groups homes until this one came along usually vilify and discouraged my writing talents but for some unknown reason Palmer home embraced and nurture my talent,

Which put a target on my back as the other residents felt like Palmer home was favouring me more,

As I seemed to get special privilege and treatment in how Palmer home treated me compared to the others.

So most of the residents would be sycophants in hoping that the owner of Palmer home Dave would give them the same perks as me, basically I had no friends just people wanting to kiss my ass and that is sadly more true now

Especially when I left Palmer home as that’s when every bodies true colors showed as I am now blacklisted.

 

Now I recall the first time I nervously asked her out as me and this other resident both wanted her

And we both were in her sick game or competition for her heart,

And I didn’t realize it at the time until the end of our twisted abusive relationship had ended.

See me and chad were both in Mike’s convenience store up the road and around a corner from Palmer home

As I stupidly and enabling Chad’s bad habits, as I had a hard time making friends in Palmer home,

So I thought that I could buy off their loyalty in hopes for their friendships and knowing that Chad was using me

I still bought him cigarettes and Pro-lines, but at the time Chad gave me an ultimatum,

Threating me that if I asked Cherry out then Chad wouldn’t be my friend anymore,

But instead I scoffed and laughed at that and took it as a challenge on myself to hopefully give my confidence a boost. So I ran back to palmer home with the attention to ask the new girl out name Cherry and when I got back

Cherry was on the phone at the time when I asked her out, but what I didn’t know is the person that she was talking to was an old Foster under aged brother that she had inappropriate relations with do to him being a minor.

So I didn’t think much of that when cherry reviled that to me after she got off the phone,

But the way she sexually flirted with him on the phone did have me nervous at first but she reinsured me that her foster brother are now both friends and that I didn’t have anything to worry about and that was considered my first mistake and first signs I stupidly ignored when I shouldn’t have, but my masochistic side of me which started off as being noble because chad reviled his true intentions at the time that assisted me in winning over Cherry’s heart

As Chad told me because mostly every resident was on government disability and was receiving a cheque,

So chad’s intentions as it was with all of the females residents was to have sex with them and sponge off their disability cheques and then want nothing to do with them afterwards, so I regretfully reviled Chad’s intentions, thinking at the time that I was doing something noble and right but wishing now that I didn’t informed Cherry of Chad’s malevolent plan to win over her heart,

 

Also do to everyone having hidden motives at the time when I asked Cherry out, for an example Palmer home had a no dating policy due to past residents getting pregnant and how the male resident aged out which supposedly turn into an ugly custody battle over the baby and the father not wanting anything to do with the mother anymore, forced Palmer home to discourage any relationships from forming which mostly every resident ignored, on top of that the male residents who felt threatened by me would attempt to tell me that Cherry was a slut in hopes that I would back off and that they would have a better chance at winning Cherry’s heart if I was out of the way altogether. So they would try to deliberately sabotage my chances, but again my masochistic side of me wanted her and wasn’t going to let anyone try to discourage me from getting her and I wished I had listen to my instincts at the time, maybe then I would be in the mess I am in now if I did.

 

Now back to the first time when I encountered Cherry and assumed that she was one of the staff’s daughters.

See I didn’t live in Palmer home at the time though I was still under the Palmer banner, but I was a part of their independent program where I had my own apartment but I was still being supported by Palmer home, where they had me still come over to Palmer home few times a week for any additional support and to mingle with the other residents as well give me free meals out of it, so on this particular day I was at Palmer home as one of my schedule days to be there and I used to dye my hair a lot but only trusted the staff to help me dye my hair. Well the female staff was busy at the time, so I had my CD Walkman and was listening to my favorited Eminem album Marshall Mathers LP that inspired my creative juices as Eminem’s music has always done for me and I had my note book of poems I wrote in and didn’t think much of it at the time and as I was writing my latest one, I wanted to show the Palmer staff but again she was busy, so Cherry asked me if she could read my poems and at first her intentions seemed innocent, so I showed her not assuming she would give me any feedback on my hobby, but she did I was thrilled when she asked if she could keep some of my poems, I said sure, but honestly outside of Palmer home staff from reading my poems I didn’t expect that anyone else would care or want my poems, making me attracted to her even though I didn’t think I had an actual shot with Cherry, being that I assumed that she was a staff’s daughter at the time. Well Cherry wanted to help dye my hair as she had desires at the time to be a haircut dresser and wanted to use me as her guinea pig, but me being very narcissistic about my hair I said no to her, you can’t dye my hair, but that did stop us from still flirting. See as Palmer was beginning to have dinner, I would share with everybody my pop, since Palmer home’s juices was always water down because supposedly the residents get very hyper and start to acted out, so the staff made a habit of always watering down the juices, though not everybody like me got hyper and acted out, so I would bring my own beverages basically pop as I am known for and at the time I was sharing my pop with everybody while Cherry was playing footsies with me under the table, making me feel more confident later on to ask her out which I stupidly did when I shouldn’t have. But what also strengthens our bond was the slow dance we had at Farrah’s wedding. Farrah was a staff filling in at the time for one of the managers who was out having her second child basically on maternity leave, so Farrah ran the day to day operations in Palmer home and Farrah’s long time fiancé named after a pool game or maybe a US rocket ship that Tom Hanks and Kevin Bacon was once in before it blew up! As they both decided to tie the knot and  at the hall or banquet where Farrah invited all of Palmer home to go, as we dressed in our finest, where me and Cherry finally cemented our relationship if that’s what you want to call a relationship, because I felt like Ralph Wiggum from the Valentine episode where Lisa Simpson gives him a choo, choo train Valentine card that says choo, choo you choose me, because it seemed real when Cherry picked me out but like Miranda Hillard from Robin Williams classic Mrs. Doubtfire scene near the end of the movie when she discovers Robin Williams as Mrs. Doubtfire, by saying “ Daniel? Daniel! Oh my God. Oh my God! Oh my God! The whole time? Than angrily she says the whole time? That’s how I felt when the gig was up between me and Cherry as the veil was lifted on what was Cherry’s true intentions were all along as I found out later on at the end of our relationship.

 

{Now the plagiarizing scandal of me and Cherry’s twisted relationship}

 

See me and Cherry have been dating though I don’t know if that is what it should be called because in in group homes relationships were only formed because of the situation that you’re in and because that person can somewhat relate to you and understands you better than the staff or the psychiatrists could ever do and being that we all suffered from Stockholm Syndrome, though instead of falling in love with our captors we fell in love with each other and ultimately my bad judgment as I dated Cherry so I assumed, but that wasn’t ever the case as she only dated me do to my position, rank or status in Palmer home, which explains later on how I became expendable when I moved out of Palmer home into Community Living as Cherry’s true colors later on were reviled.

 

As every knows I am a writer and one day while I was dating Cherry she came back home from her school and was very excited about getting an A+ on one her pome she supposedly wrote and submitted to her art teacher in her art class and at first I just being a good boyfriend and giving her as much positive support though I never got to read what she wrote, No! Cherry decided to share it with two female staff that have been a fan of my poems for a long time named Betty-Lynn and  Gail and at the time that was Cherry first mistake that she made as I could read the staffs facial expression as I waited for Cherry who was in the staff office at the time and they were not to thrill with Cherry’s written poem as I found out later on as the staff reported her to her school which the school in returned expelled her for the rest of the remaining year based on plagiarism as it was my understanding at the time, which Cherry still holds a grudge towards me to this day as it was one of her reasons why she now still hates me. See the female staff Betty-Lynn and  Gail warned her not to show me as I have pride in my poems, but Cherry did and as expected I was pissed off that my poems were being stolen and I wasn’t receiving any credits for my poems, which began the friction in our relationship, but it wasn’t me that asked the staff to report her to her school that eventually expelled her for the rest of the remaining school year, that was the female staffs Betty-Lynn and  Gail who were fans of my poems and had read enough of my poems to know that it was my poems that Cherry was ultimately using to give herself a better graded in school, plus I forgot to mention as she didn’t think I had a clue on her promiscuous cheating ways and maybe this might be rumors I head well dating her? That she had a few high school lovers that she had behind my back while dating me, but do to me being insecure and I stupidly thought I had a chance with Cherry, but in actuality I was just pathetic, naïve and maybe desperate on my part at the time to the point where I overlooked her promiscuous cheating ways, though the signs were clearly always there like writing on the wall, but I just took it as graffiti and assumed that it was all in my head do to me having constant trust issues, that I have been battling since my last failed relationship, so I didn’t make a big deal out of it when I should have because I thought her feelings for me were absolutely genuine when clearly that wasn’t the case what so ever! I also knew that she never had any feelings for me the way that she would talk very sexually to her foster brother though she was under a restraining order from her foster parents, as from my understanding not to have any interactions with her foster brother, do to her being 19 and her foster brother being a preteen basically 12 or 14 years old when she had sex with him being that he was a minor at the time and either two scenarios of what I believe happened as I don’t know the full story, but either the most likely she got caught by the foster parents or it was a blackmail gone bad that got her kicked out of her last foster home and that’s why she ended up in Palmer home in the first place but that didn’t actually stop her from still interacting with her foster brother that she called nightly and spoke to him very sexual, but she always tried to insure me that her and her foster brother relationship was strictly platonic, but I always had my doubts and suspicions at the time but stupidly overlooked them for my selfish ego, because in group homes it’s all about your reputation as group homes have this stigma to be like high school meets prison mentality and Cherry was the most attractive female resident in Palmer home at the time and everybody was gunning for her in hopes that she would date one of us but sadly it turned out to be me who got choose and at first I was happy that Cherry picked me, but I now know why she picked me out of the many single horny bachelors in Palmer home and that was because of my status in Palmer home at the time. Which I know deep down hurt’s my pride and ego as a man to admit that because my feelings for her might have started off as juvenile, childish and immature at first, but once I assume that I understood her my feelings became real and noble and I really wanted to make us work out, but sadly that will never be.

 

{Now my stupid mistake\ life lesson}

 

See me and a few others including Cherry were playing a game of Monopoly in the summertime and one and the same female staff Betty-Lynn that was against Cherry’s plagiarism was also was playing with us and wearing this noticeable tank top with her cleavage hanging out, also I should note that the female staff Betty-Lynn was roughly around my age group, but staff have this teachers like clause of no dating, so from common sense everyone knew she was off limits, but it didn’t stop us from looking at her exposed cleavage well Cherry for some unknown reason was wearing a white turtleneck in the middle of summer as well me and Cherry was dating for a few weeks by now and I always believe in being honest but on this particular day I was too honest as Betty-Lynn the female staff that I liked as any guy would be sexually turned on by her exposed cleavage and as Betty-Lynn went to answer her ringing cellphone which put our game on hold as Betty-Lynn was taking a smoke break and as well talking on the phone outside, so Cherry  asked me what I thought was a metaphorical or hypothetical question at the time and that was would I fuck Betty-Lynn? I replied back with a yes! Assuming that Cherry knew that nothing realistically could ever happen or that I was being interrogated, but instead unexpectedly all hell broke loose as Cherry flipped over the table and the Monopoly board before storming off to her bedroom and destroying it and the older polish staff name Zed shook his head and said to me here’s some good advice for you Curtis and that is never tell a women especially if she is your girlfriend that you have the hots for some other girl as women are very territorial and jealous and don’t want to feel like their man is shopping somewhere else Zed says to me and I replied to Zed don’t worry I’ll make this right LOL! Which I obviously didn’t as I told Cherry though the crack of her bedroom door that if me, Betty-Lynn and you were to have a threesomes I promise when I get to my Cumming point I’ll make sure I’ll cum in you and that only made Cherry that much more pissed off where Cherry was calling me every name in the book while destroying her bedroom more and that’s when Betty-Lynn returned from her smoke break and was wondering what’s all the commotion and why is Cherry upset? Zed replies back because Curtis told her that he would sleep with you basically fuck you and the Betty-Lynn got mad at me and went into Cherry’s room to try to calm her down, also Betty-Lynn if I recalled slapped me while telling her boyfriend and now her husband what I said to Cherry, which had me scared because I felt that he might show up and beat me up for hitting on his girlfriend and now wife but thank God that he never showed up that day. Well I apologized to Cherry  later on that day and it seemed that everything between me and Cherry went back to normal so I assumed which turned out to be a mistake as Cherry forever held a grudge for me for the rest of the remainder of our twisted symbiotic relationship as I felt plus I would never cheat on a woman I am dating, but I do have eyes and I am not blind and I really thought it was a metaphorical or hypothetical and not an interrogation question or a interrogation tactic from Cherry, as I didn’t know that she would have immaturely reacted this way being that she was my second relationship at the time in Palmer home as most of my group homes I came from were all boys homes, so I didn’t have much interacted with women or girls until I got to Palmer home and was forced into my first and failed relationship if I am to explain my actions and that was my bad, but I thought this story was funny be if it’s immature for what it was worth at the time when Cherry was mad at me for telling her that I would fuck Betty-Lynn and as you the readers  will find out that I have a habit of looking for negative reactions as my positive reinforcement because too me people used to think that I was too serious and that I needed to lighten up so I did, by making jokes out of everything that happens in my life but those same people now find it to be obnoxious and overplayed.

 

{Now Cherry’s Rape Accusations}

 

Before I get into Cherry’s alleged rape accusation\ allegation or as I as I understand it now to be miscommunication between Cherry and the staff when Cherry made this absurd claims, let me set the scene by giving you all a history lesson of past events that lead to this point in time.

 

See I tried to close the deal with Cherry a few times though unfortunately unsuccessfully, But I can recall a few times I tried like this one time where I was invited to go swimming, but I usually didn’t like hanging out with Palmer home do to me having a lone wolf like personally plus the Palmer residents didn’t know or cared how to behave in community when they did their outings and this outing to the pool was no different, but do to me I was trying to be supportive to Cherry, but I said to her that I couldn’t go anyways as I don’t have any swimming trunks, plus I can’t swim do to some near drowning death experience I had that deterred me from swimming, but for Cherry I went anyways after the staff convince one of the residents I think his name was Duke and he let me used his Swimming trucks because I was usually particular in wearing other people’s cloths also because Palmer residents weren’t big on cleanliness, but Duke was one of the few people like me who cared about his appearance and hygiene, so I took him up on his offer for his swimming trucks and headed out to Richmond Hills public pool that was up the road from Palmer home and when I got there I stayed in the shallow end of the pool where Cherry was grinding up against me in the pool which I didn’t mind at the time and Cherry wanted to have sex in the unisex bathrooms and again this shows the favouritism that staff have for me because usually staff opposed residents from having sexual relations do to Palmer’s no dating policy but the staff made an acceptation for me and Cherry by telling us that we are both consenting adults and Palmer trusted me as I wasn’t working an angle like the other residents that just want to used and abused each other due to relationships were never treated as sacred as it was like being at a live Jerry Springer live taping the way the residents would fornicate and then turn on each other weekly. But beyond that let me take you all back to the story, see there was a resident name after a bible character named Cornelius and I think he had O.D.C. disorder why I say that he was very punctual with his smoke break and he had to have his cigarettes or all hell breaks loose if he doesn’t get his cigarette on time and it was his time for a cigarettes, but I think the staff forgot to bring them assuming we all would be back before his next cigarette break.

But that wasn’t the case, so Cornelius started to have one of his usual tap and tantrums and began to act out at the public pool and thinking that this might be the night that I get luck and score with Cherry I offer to give Cornelius a cigarette from my pack of Du Maurier I think I was smoking at the time, but the staff said no Cornelius can wait, which only made Cornelius escalate that much more to the staff had no choice but to bring us all back to Palmer home, therefore me and Cherry didn’t get to have sex in the public pool unisex bathroom as we both hope.

 

Second time me and Cherry tried to have sex was at the park down the street from Palmer home where mostly all the Palmer residents hang out. I believe it was a nice hot spring day and I and Cherry were making out on the park bench when a huge shadowy figure eclipsed us like a solar eclipse and at this time I had an erection or a boner, but Cherry at the last minute moved out of the way and this female resident who has always had a crush on me, but I didn’t ever feel the same way for her as this might sound shallow but I am not into overweight females, but this female resident inconveniently sat on my erection basically killing the mood and me being pissed off I confronted her boyfriend at the time who was a male resident living in Palmer, who was also at the park sliding down on the park’s slide and I asked him why are you guys here? To which he replied my girlfriend wanted to go to the park and to make things more awkward and unusual he told me Cherry and his girlfriend is supposedly dating and I replied back what the fuck????! What do you meaning dating? He replied back like they are two lesbians only for me to believe that Cherry was mad at me and probably still holding a grudge against me because of how I told her a while ago how I would fuck Betty-Lynn when we were playing Monopoly and she asked me when Betty-Lynn the female attractive staff went out for her smoke break and phone call that Betty-Lynn got her cellphone when I thought at the time it was a hypothetical not an interrogation tactic question when I was being honest with Cherry and didn’t think she would get so angry with me and still hold a grudge against me for something that was so childish and petty and more importantly I apologize for and tried numerous times to make it right, but Cherry is one of those girls that I found out while I was dating her that she was vindictive and vengeful assuming why she went behind my back and lesbian relationship with this fat unattractive female Palmer resident, but I went along with it but I had my doubts all along which this female staff name Lorna who was a big bible thumper attacked me on not getting with the times and being bias by being against Cherry’s  lesbian relationship. Hell! I remember this one time where Chad told Cherry how I wouldn’t go down on a woman orally do to my weak stomach to smells and taste as I know that women pee, poo and bleed from their vagina and anal therefore I am opposed to putting my face anywhere near a women’s pussy and Chad told this to Cherry in hopping he could score points with her if he wasn’t already having sex with Cherry being that clearly while dating me she made herself sexually available to everyone in Palmer plus her sexual nightly phone calls to her underage foster brother didn’t help though she kept saying it was platonic and that nothing serious was ever between them. But Cherry confronted me about not wanting to go down orally on a woman, but asked me you wouldn’t mind me if I went down on you and gave you a blowjob and I said no I wouldn’t mind at all and Cherry says why? Because that’s your mouth and I am not forcing or inquiring you to go down on me therefore it is your choice, well Lorna the staff overheard this conversation and called me a hypocrite and told me that I am a chauvinistic pig as Lorna was against Cherry going down on me, but as I told Cherry I also told Lorna the same thing as well if Cherry wants to go down on me and give me a blowjob that’s her choice, her mouth as I am not holding a gun to her head and forcing her, but Lorna missed the point and kept on verbally attacking me, also I remember one time me putting a flashlight down this fat ugly girl’s mouth, basically Cherry’s lesbian partner and joking around by screaming down her throat “Hey Cherry if you can hear me down there? Don’t forget to take a shower before coming to my place if you still are? Which Cherry never did come over to my apartment not until the second night before I was to move out from Palmer due to me being 23 years old and have obviously aged out as Palmer keeps residents until they are 21 years old but I and a few were the acceptation.

 

Also Cherry would conveniently take showers when I was supposed to leave Palmer home and go back to my 100 Cedar avenue Richmond Hill apartment as I had to leave around 11 o clock when the nightshift staff come on as that was a part of my agreement when I visited Palmer on my schedule days, but Cherry would always wanted me to give her a goodnight kiss before I left and she would always come to the bathroom door in a towel and being that she was a very attractive young 19 year old girl it took every little bit of strength not to rip off her towel as most of the male residence want me to and I knew why, but I never did.

 

Also Cherry liked to flirt with the male residence and get me jealous and upset and I remember this one time where Cornelius was clearly hitting on Cherry in front of me at the dinner table in Palmer and it anger me so much that I got up and man handle Cornelius and put him up against the wall where they had all the numbers to call and I punished the wall leaving a whole and told Cornelius that would be your head next time if you hit on my girlfriend Cherry again and the sad thing is, is that Cherry got off on getting me jealous and upset that I think Cherry liked seeing me get angry, but whatever right?

 

Now to that unfortunate Saturday at my apartment that I can’t forget or let go due to how Palmer having a prejudice history and how you’re easily labelled and stigmatize and how this is put on your public group home records for the rest of your life though somehow I got luck and maybe because a male resident from Palmer’s past ended up having his whole life ruin by this scandal as Tim the male resident had this unfortunately happened to him that he has from my knowledge never recovered from and that was a rape allegation which almost became my fate as well thanks to Cherry. As Tim was in the middle of having sex with one of the ugly female’s residence and the Palmer staff were having their usual staff meeting when I guest went upstairs as I wasn’t there for this as I was there to hear the aftermath of this and why Tim lived temporary Palmer’s first adult apartment program that got later shut down and where I and someone else became recipients of our own independent apartment program but that doesn’t happen until much later when I met Cherry  and supposedly Tim got caught with his pants down having sex with a female resident and when they were pulled apart and interrogated for their side of the story the female to get herself out of hot water cried rape and before you knew it poor Tim was blamed and arrested and charged only for the staff to later on find out it was all a lie conjured up by the female and her partner in crime Chad as I overheard Chad confess and brag about how easy it was to get away with framing Tim for rape while Chad was having one of his smoke breaks and I told the staff but it was too late for the staff to take any action therefore Tim’s charges later on got dropped but a little too late unfortunately as Tim was already victimized and stigmatized by this rape accusation and now fast forward to me and Cherry 3 years later where Cherry tried pulling off the same stun with the help no other than Chad who thought it would be successful all over again but not the case fortunately for me as I dodged a bullet.

 

But see it was Saturday afternoon and I finally convinced Cherry not knowing of her malevolent and sinister plan that that waited for me to come over to my apartment and which Cherry did, as I intend on having sex with Cherry, but again I didn’t know of her malevolent, twisted and sinister plan to make me her fall guy as I was naive and dumb at this point, I bring her back to my place hoping to get luck while I asked Cherry once or twice do you want to have sex? No answer from Cherry so I backed off only a half hour in and us watching Star Trek Voyager episode on my TV that only got channels through a TV antenna as I had no cable do to me not being able to pay off my Roger’s box bill therefore Roger’s cut my cable services way before I met Cherry thanks to Chad ordering gay porn and running up my Roger bill to 800 dollars, but my friend Duke who also lived in Palmer gave me an old TV he found and fixed up as Duke love dumpster diving for old electronics fixing them up and then reselling them. While like I said basically a half an hour later when a commercial came on Cherry turns to me asks me I thought you wanted sex? And I replied yes I did but you never said anything and Cherry says back body language did and I said jokingly not knowing that I might have plant this idea in her head, do you know how many rapists have used body  language as their excuse for why they raped a women as I sarcastically said it and also I am not dumb and you’re not a mute therefore you can give me a verbalize respond if you want to have sex with me or not and Cherry said yes and took me by the had to my bedroom as I didn’t know the ringer on my house phone was on as I usually out of habit keep my phone off as the residence like to call me night and day and harass all hours and plus I like sleeping in the day time as I am a Nighthawk or night owl that stays up all night and I don’t go to be until the early morning, but as I found out later on my phone ringer was on that day, but me and Cherry were in my bedroom and being that Cherry is the only second women I have been with I was a little gun shy, but as soon as Cherry  pulled her pants down half way and showed me her tits I was good to go but stupid me I forgot to wear a condom and as I was inside her my phone began to ring nonstop and I tried to ignore it, but my phone just kept on ringing and ringing until I told Cherry I’ve gotta pick up my phone see whoever this is and see what they want, so I pulled out of her and went to pick up my ringing phone and it turned out to be her staff from Palmer home calling informing to bring her back right now and I said trying to be discreet and told the staff I am in the middle of something right now can I bring Cherry back later and the staff said no, you either bring back now or I’ll called the cops and I said for what? I’m just up the street from you guys as I was getting defensive and the staff still demand Cherry  to come home or I’ll called the cops and say either Cherry  has A-walled or you are holding her hostage and I said find I am bringing Cherry back right now than got off the phone and told Cherry the staff want you back at Palmer right now so we have to go and I went to my bathroom and finished myself off and sprayed her and myself with AXE body spray to try to cover up the smell of sex and head back to Palmer home as soon as me and Cherry have arrived we were barraged and interrogated first the staff asked her questions on why she was late while I waited for my turn in Chad’s bedroom upstairs in Palmer and Chad says to me you guys must have had sex if you both reek of Axe and I said yes than it was my turn to go into the staff office and answer questions and the first and only question the staff asked me is did I wear a condom? And I said it’s not your business if I wore a condom while the staff kept repeating the question over and over until paranoia kicked in and I said does Cherry have a STD I should be worried about? And the staff kept saying that’s confidential you would have to ask Cherry and I replied back sarcastically like Cherry is going to tell me if she has an STD? As residences are vindictive and looking for payback therefore Cherry would never be honest with me and the staff asked me again did I wear a condom? That’s when I got angry and said if you guys are going to tell me that Cherry has a STD than when I am on my eventual death bed I am going to go Columbine on your guy’s ass and killed every one of you mother fuckers before I die and the staff panic and said no Cherry doesn’t have an STD than what? The staff’s says that Cherry hasn’t been taking her birth control pills and then I went and confronted Cherry about not taking her birth control pills and for some reason Cherry was on this wanting a baby agenda and Cherry says to me I would make a great father but I told Cherry I don’t want a baby and no I wouldn’t make a great father as I am broke, secondly my family has bad genes and she replied I also have bad genes in my family, but Cherry nothing like my family! As there’s a good chance that the child could be Down syndrome or suffer from autism or learning disabilities or worst the child could grow up to be a pedophile or Canada’s next serial killer like my father who is a bad man. After that Cherry backed off and I apologized and bought her pop and went downstairs to sleep on Palmer’s couch where Cherry came downstairs and asked me do you want to have sex here at Palmer because it’s just you and me down here and I said no because if we get caught they will kick me out as well kick you out and we would be both be homeless if we get caught.

 

Well Monday came and me and Betty-Lynn were packing up my stuff to move to Community Living on April 30th basically Betty-Lynn’s birthday, so while I was packing up Gail the staff came in and started asking me all these bizarre questions, did I forced myself in anyway when I was having sex with Cherry? Did I force Cherry to have sex with me against her will as I went from being confused to being paranoid because I recalled this once happing to another Palmer resident named Tim and how it didn’t work out for him as well I notice a cop cruiser outside my window and Betty-Lynn told Gail that Curtis wouldn’t hurt a fly as I have known him for 7 years and this is the first time I have ever heard of this and if it wasn’t for Betty-Lynn standing for me that day I don’t know what my future would be, while I packed up while watching the cop cruiser and Betty-Lynn kept on insuring me that the cop isn’t here for me and Betty-Lynn was right.

 

While later on that night the staff wanted me to come over for me and Chad’s goodbye party and I kept saying no and if I go over them in my current state of mind I might end up doing something that will get me charge by the police and that’s bash in Cherry’s skull if that bitch crosses my path, but the staffs kept on insisting that I go and I said you’re not worry about Cherry’s safety? And the staffs all said no while one staff took me to a store and bought me a few T-shirts, a CD Walkman and my favorited Eminem album the original Marshall Mathers LP album and therefore the staff bribing me to go I went and while the staff was cutting the cake Zed another staff pulled me aside and said how come you and Cherry are talking? And I said because the bitch tried setting me for rape so to me the bitch is better off dead and Zed told me that it was a miscommunication on the staffs part and not on Cherry’s end plus you two looked so good together as a couple and plus Curtis she the only girl you can get, so you don’t want to blow you chance on a miscommunication and alleged rape accusation, so I went and knocked on Cherry’s room to bring her a slice of the cake and Cherry in tears tells me she is sorry and that she didn’t mean to hurt me and like usual I bought into it when I shouldn’t have but I did stupidly and I stupidly took her back thinking that she was really sorry not knowing that this was all a sick game to her so therefore we made up and she thought I was still mad at her so to prove to her that I wasn’t upset I let her borrow my CD Walkman and my new Eminem album original the Marshall Mathers LP along with my new T-shirt not knowing that I was getting played the whole time by Cherry and that when we officially broke up and I had to give back her stuff which was only a picture of her and me sitting on the steps outside of Palmer home while she stole my all of my stuff, my CD Walkman and more importantly my Eminem album which nowadays I assumed Cherry  with her absolute hate towards me probably threw out all my shit not that I care and more as it’s the past and I have replaced my copy of Eminem’s album and on top of that I found out that Chad and Cherry both planed and conspired this rape accusation against me, as Chad told me that nobody likes me and everybody hated me and more importantly Cherry hates me the most which nowadays that’s not hard to believe that Cherry  conspired with Chad to try to get rid of me as Cherry hates me now but I can say it’s 100 percent accurate other than Chad has tried to frame other Palmer residences in the past more notably Tim with a rape accusation.

 

Now Break up and Aftermath

 

Now after Cherry’s infamous rape accusation and I stupidly took her back, I recall this one time right after I moved out of Palmer home straight into Community Living and I was heartbroken and sad for leaving all my friends behind, but more importantly Cherry behind I called Palmer home at night time and the overnight staff Lorna picked up and we spoke for a few seconds before informing me that Cherry was crying which I didn’t know was nothing but crocodile tears as I thought they were real I know stupid of me right? But I really cared about Cherry and I wanted to make things work out between us though that was never Cherry’s intentions as I later on found out. But Cherry was crying those infamous crocodile tears that I didn’t know was a work as I believe Cherry’s tears were real at the time and Lorna tells me that Cherry is upset and crying and said why? Because she misses you id my understanding as I guess that’s what Cherry told Lorna and I and Lorna believed it at the time, well Lorna passes the phone to Cherry who’s really putting Oscar-winning performance with those infamous crocodile tears and me trying to be supportive asked Cherry what will make you happy as Cherry ironically was worried that I was going to cheat on her and leave her though Cherry made a career of pulling the wool over my eyes and constantly cheating on me with every guy that came her way, but she was under this impression at the time saying the other Palmer residences were making these outrageous rumors that I am going to cheat on her when that was never my intention but whatever right? I stupidly went along with it to prove to her that I had no intentions of cheating on her with anyone I mean come on I mean I took Cherry back after she accused me of rape and I know the worst mistake I ever did I wished I had a time machine but I sadly don’t as Cherry gave me all these ridiculous demands of me calling her and visiting as much as I could plus I stayed on the phone until 5 in the morning with Cherry trying to cheer her and make her laugh with one of my corny jokes because I wanted Cherry to be in a good place as I know now looking back on it was one of my worst mistakes ever and a waste of both me and Cherry’s time especially now that I realized her  infamous crocodile tears was all an elaborate scheme to feed on my emotions and kindness.

 

While after that infamous night phone call with Cherry of me speaking to her for hours to insured her that I wasn’t going to cheat on her, but the first month which was May 2008 Cherry answered all of my phone calls and we even went to the movies to see Pineapple Express a stupid drug comedy movie that I am not into but I compromised and took a bullet for her though it was one of the most awkward encounters I’ve had as this staff name Slava creepily chauffeured us around all night as he drove us to the movie theater as Slava the staff wouldn’t let me or Cherry kiss or hold hands or even sit next to each other and if one of us had to go to the bathroom the other one would have to wait their turn until the other one came back. Hell! I and Cherry weren’t even allowed to have eye contact with one another unless Slava had approved of it. Which I think also might have caused the downfall of me and Cherry’s relationship as Slava was more than a overprotected bodyguard, as Slava I felt was out to sabotage me and Cherry’s relationship by any means necessary. As Slava was like Ned Flanders from the Simpsons episode called to Surveil with Love, Slava’s intentions might have meant well, but he came off more like a creepy uncle in the end, though I don’t think it really mattered in the end when it came to me and Cherry’s relationship as our relationship was doomed from the get go, this Slava memory just adds more layers to this cake that is me and Cherry’s doomed and gloomed relationship anyways plus I am not even certain if Cherry and our doomed relationship was even real or a figment of my imagination being that if Cherry was a real person and not a figment of my imagination Cherry was always a con artist that preyed on my kindness and emotions and because I just somewhat got out of a bad sticky relationship with another Palmer resident female relationship, maybe being that I am a very creative person with a wild imagination I might have unintentionally created this fictitious person I named Cherry to give my ego a needed boosted, as I felt like Homer Simpson in Don’t Fear the Roofer episode where Homer was the only one who could see the roofer Ray Romano as everyone else until the end of the episode thought it was Homer’s figment of imagination and that’s how I can mostly described mine and Cherry’s relationship if you can call it that? As I am still somewhat dumbfounded and traumatized by me and Cherry’s so called relationship because by June 2008 that’s when I came to my senses and realized that Cherry was conning me all along. Because after seeing Pineapple Express with Cherry and that’s when the blinders were truly off and Cherry reviled her true nature or as Eminem once put it “Can the real slim shady please stand up?” or in this case can the real Cherry please stand up? And she did or like the Exorcist movie when the priest asked the devil or demon to reveal itself and Cherry did just do that as I was introduced to the real Cherry and not this victim that she originally made herself out to be, but the con artist succubus that she is.

 

As I recalled back in June of 2008 as Cherry inquired of me to do I would visit and call her as she asked me to, so she knows that I am not cheating on her and by June Cherry was playing this phone tag and now at first it might have come off as Cherry was busy at least to the naked eye to how it was seen, but that wasn’t ever the case as she had one of her fan club Palmer resident speak on her behalf well in the background Cherry was feeding this Palmer resident his lines by telling as if I am stupid that Cherry isn’t home when truly Cherry was home, but just like my last relationship Cherry was having affair behind my back with this guy that she is currently getting engaged to as I found out  much later and was secretly in a scandalous relationship with him without giving me any heads up, but I realized that Cherry’s behaviour was very suspicious the way she kept on blowing me off as if I did something wrong when I never did, other than my biggest mistake was me forgiving and taking her back after she tried to frame me with a rape accusation that was never true as Cherry was on probation by Palmer home for her alleged sexual relationship with a minor that was her foster brother that got her kicked out of her foster home and placed into Palmer group home’s care and when I attempted to have sex with Cherry not knowing that I was going to get blue balled for my efforts, plus Cherry was on this baby kick as Palmer’s staff reviled to me that Cherry wasn’t taking her birth control pills than basically the next day when Palmer was going to consequence and punish her for being late by taking away a few weeks of her Community time and ground her to Palmer home or her bedroom as she wasn’t allowed to go outside do to her being late as she was only allowed a few hours outside of Palmer if the staff permitted and approved it as long as Cherry comes back on her scheduled time to take her meds as I didn’t know that Cherry was on probation until afterwards, as Cherry was getting handed her punished by Palmer on the following Monday after I had sex with her on Saturday and thought that she was on some baby kick, but it turns out she had something more sinister in mind to get herself out of hot water by telling Palmer’s staff the reason why she was late is because she was being held hostage and being held against her will and that I was allegedly raping her is why she came back late, being that was never the case because as I said before I asked Cherry if she wanted to have sex? And Cherry never respond back to me therefore I left it alone only for her a half hour later while we our watching Star Trek Voyager episode she asked me I thought that you wanted to have sex? And I replied I do but you never answered me at all so therefore I assumed that you didn’t than Cherry replies back to me something to do with her body language and I told her that I know you can speak, I’m not stupid and you’re not a mute plus do you know how many rapists have used the body language defends to say why they raped this person therefore Cherry is it a yes or a no on wanting to have sex with me? Cherry said yes and took me by the hand back to my bedroom and well I assumed that my ringer was off as usually my ringer is I headed with Cherry to my bedroom but unfortunately do to so much time passing by plus the fact that Cherry was my only second sexual encounter I was gun shy or nervous as I at first couldn’t get erected until I saw some of Cherry’s lady parts as she only pulled her pants half way down and showed me her tits but didn’t take off her shirt or bra ever and on top of that I forgot the Trojan condom that was sitting on my radiator as I didn’t have a bed just a mattress on the floor, but as I said I got blue balled as my phone kept on ringing and ringing to where I told Cherry I had to pick up this ringing phone which turned out to be her Palmer staff demanding me to bring Cherry back to where I went into the bathroom finished myself off and also told Cherry that her staff want her back home right now and so I did and then I got confronted by the Palmer staff if I wore a condom several times until I freaked out and made a columbine death threat statement assuming that Cherry had an STD that the Palmer staff were not telling me do to Palmer’s home’s confidential agreement where the staff told me that Cherry hasn’t being taking her birth control pills only for me to find out that Cherry’s birth control pills was a cover up to this alleged rape allegation so Cherry who love painting herself as a victim and loves to put the blame on everyone but herself tried to make me her fall guy so her Community time was it taken away for her being late and then I find out later on that Cherry and Chad conspired and conjured up this alleged rape accusation to stick it to me because they both don’t like me and wanted to get rid of me and this was the only thing that they could come up at the time plus Chad was always had a infatuation for Cherry and this was Chad and Cherry’s way to supposedly get me out of the way so Chad could have Cherry to himself.

 

There was this one time I recall where everybody went to see Kevin Spacey’s 21 movies where Chad alleged that him and Cherry who both by the way as I recall were sitting in the middle while the two staff Zed and Lorna were sitting between them. But Chad claims that once the lights went out in the movie theater that Cherry gave him a blowjob while supposedly in front of two staff Zed and Lorna and that Zed and Lorna just ignored it as if it never happen as Chad would brag to us residences after the movie was finished only for me to be the only one to poke holes in his so called blowjob story while everyone who was there accept maybe a few believed to this day that Chad got a blowjob by my ex-girlfriend Cherry and as much as it might be unlikely and Chad is just trying to make noise, but Cherry by nature did acted like a slut and did mislead most of the male residences, plus the alleged affairs with be with her minor foster brother she had sex with or with her classmates in her school or Cherry’s lesbian relationship with one of the female residences or her going behind my back and was engaging in a secret relationship with a guy that she claims that she met online that ended up being my replacement in the end, all because he drove a yellow knocked off sports car Mitsubishi Eclipse Spyder I believe or because he had his parents guilt money that pays for his cushy lifestyle, his rent and Cherry rent  and all the things that most of us have to work for to get she gets it for free as Cherry is nothing more now than a freeloader,  just like when she was with me she portend to be a victim of  circumstances as Cherry one told me she was in this alleged car accident with her underage foster brother that she was having sex with as they both stole her foster parents car and took it out for a joy ride only to crash it into a street light post and Cherry claims this to be true if you was to look at Cherry you would notice that she has no identifiable car accidents scars that I assume comes with a car accident, also Cherry  told me that her foster family used to lock her in their basement as well that her foster dad was raping her every night and that her foster mother supposedly knew about it but did nothing other than give her blessing on it, though I don’t know if this is Cherry just playing the victim card or if any of these terrible things actually happened to her as she claims and I found this out is because she wanting my blessing on her poems and wanted my writing tips at the time and I told her if you want to be taken as a serious writer like me than you need to be honest with your art and fans is what I told Cherry, not knowing that this was one of her many cons  and that Cherry had no ambition to be a writer it was her sticking out her feelers to see if she found one of my weakness so Cherry can exploit and use it in her pulling the wool over my eyes when we dated briefly back in 2008, as she played her con game for a while for at least 3 weeks in June because when I’d visited Cherry she would strangely distance herself and come up with all these excuses that she was busy with school work, but really what I think was going on and eventually found out was Cherry was having a secret affair with this rich guy she found online named Ken who as I said before drove a knock off sports car Mitsubishi Eclipse Spyder and had his parents guilt money to send on Cherry as I found out the hard way is that Cherry was one of those superficial kind of girls or gold diggers as some might refer them as either way she was only with and still with this guy based on his wealth so she can sponge off of him as Cherry later on with my doing of having the other residences of Palmer as my surrogates that I had everyone bullied her, where Cherry fear for her life because the female residences were jealous and insecure as I exploited their common fears of her stealing their boyfriends away because on the flip side I told all the male residences how easy Cherry was sexually so basically I had her run into this guy’s arms when she turned 21 years old as I made as I made her year and a half a living nightmare where she would lock herself in her room as a recluse as I made Cherry feel unwelcome in Palmer home after all the underhanded things she did to me in our twisted relationship as I am a very vindictive person when I feel cheated and manipulated and that’s what Cherry did to me throughout our short lived history.

 

Again I didn’t know our relationship was over than I had a suspicious feeling that it was and Cherry clarified that when weeks after her phone game of having her fan club of male horny residences talk on her behalf while she directed them in what to say while she was always in the background, having them tell me she’s not there when clearly I can hear her in the background, but do to me being voiceless and powerless in this situation as Palmer staff made it clear to me that I no longer live or associated and that Cherry was their main priority and if I didn’t like it than Palmer home staff will have my phone number blocked if this becomes a problem therefore automatically siding with Cherry even if Cherry is being abusive towards me as Palmer home allowed Cherry to play her sick phone cat and mouse like phone game with me for three weeks in June of 2008 before Palmer finally got her to actually stop playing her phone games and speak to me and I said hi, and when Cherry didn’t respond back I said sarcastically it looks like we have broken up? And Cherry replied back with Yeap! Like she was Dave from Storage Wars TV show but only with one Yeap before hanging up and never giving me a reason why she broke it off with me other than Cherry fuelled my theories why, so after Cherry broke it off with me I headed to a bar near where I lived came back and found her cell number and portend to be drunk so I can air out my grievances on her voicemail as I called her every derogatory and inflammatory female remark I could think of like the classics slut, whore, tramp and then I went on a religious rant in saying I hope Cherry you burn in hell! Also to play up the fact that I was drunk so I made it seem like a drunk rant, but here is a funny fact about me I don’t drink anything with alcohol plus if I drink I keep an eye on my limit of how much I have drank plus the drinks I order are daiquiri this pink Pepto Bismol drink that I specifically asked the bar tender to only put a littler rum in my drinks as I am not big on alcohol making my drunken voicemail seem like I am in a drunk state but my plan was too get even with Cherry and maybe get the last word in, but the Palmer staff told me that Cherry wanted to charge me with verbal assault but the staff were able on one condition that I don’t ever call Cherry’s personal cellphone again or her on Palmer’s kids line that I stay away from her and don’t interacted with her at all which I did what they asked of me and threw away her personal cellphone number, instead what I should have done is wrote her cell number on a public bathroom stall and let all the pervs called her since she always made herself in our relationship as always sexually available like she was an escort business or a brothel anyways. But that however that didn’t stop me from turning her friends against her and basically and eventually systematically all of Palmer home as well, forcing her hand to prematurely without weighing her other options to run into the arms of her rich Prince Charming or maybe in this case, sorry Cinderella! But her ugly rich stepsister’s arms, if the rumors that I’ve heard are true and that is that he is a control freak and abusive either emotionally or physically or both, so I guess karma in a way has finally caught up with her, but again I doubt that very much so.

 

 

See in June or July of 2008 after it was public that I and Cherry have broken up Chad who as I have said before as always had a sick obsessive infatuation for Cherry trying to make his move on her and not that I care or is it my business who Cherry goes out with as it’s her life and not mine, but in this case it became my business as Chad reviled to me that he was going on Palmer home’s yearly camping trip only to fuck Cherry and stick it to me as Chad was a very jealous person especially of me because Chad always wanted Cherry to himself and if I knew what Cherry plans were with me, as her love for me was never real just a figment of my imagination as Cherry solely dated me because of my status in Palmer home that’s why I believed why Cherry deliberately sabotaged our relationship right from the get go with her first offense of plagiarizing my poems, her ongoing inappropriate sexual relationship with her underage foster brother that she kept saying was only platonic though I always had my doubts or the several times of her infidelity be if it was a guy she met in her high-school or her now current rich guy she is with now with his knocked off yellow sports car or her leading on the males residences in Palmer home or her short lived lesbian affair with one of the female residences or more importantly her alleged and false rape allegation, if I knew all these things prior before our infamous relationship started I would have not fight for her or got in the way or threw my hat in the ring for a shot, as I would have just let Chad have her all to himself, only if I had a time machine to erase this infamous crime scene and rewrite history, but sorry Chad I can’t change the circumstances back then, but I wished I could than we all would be happy and none of this bull shit that was me and Cherry’s relationship wouldn’t have ever taken place, but unfortunately I can’t change that even if I wanted, either way I who hates going camping especially with Palmer because most of the kids are immature and annoying either for making annoying noises when everybody tried to sleep, bring drugs to the camp site where cops were mostly called every day or constantly arguing and bickering and getting into fights, plus on top of that there is really nothing meaning no TV, no PlayStation or Xbox 360 nothing a bunch of hooligans, nature and outhouses, that’s why Farrah granted my wish one year not to go camping and founded it weird that all the suddenly I wanted to go and she and the rest of Palmer home assumed that I wanted to go because of Cherry and hoping that I could fixed our broken relationship but I told Farrah one of the supervisors of Palmer home that I was done with Cherry and my only reason is because Chad told me that he wanted to sleep or fuck Cherry to get back at me and I wanted a place where I can dump his body, because I told Chad that the Cherry wound was still fresh and hasn’t become a scar yet so Chad please back off before I do something that we both will come to regret only one of us will actually get to feel it while the other one will be in a shallow grave if you don’t take the hit or warning I am giving you, But Chad one of those assholes that loves rubbing salt in your wounds as Chad enjoy other people’s suffering, so therefore I told Farrah of Chad’s plan where Farrah told Chad he also couldn’t go camping either, which might have disappointed Cherry but she probably she had sex with Chad anyways if not camping then somewhere else since Cherry made Chad her number two choice to date in Palmer home if I didn’t throw my name into the hat and won her heart over which again was one of my life’s biggest mistakes I ever made, as all of the hell Cherry put me through in the end wasn’t worth it ever if I had my way to rewrite history.

 

Than someone on Facebook once questioned my authenticity of my love for Cherry that you can’t fall in love with someone in 3 and a half or close to 4 months he said, but being in close quarters with someone who makes you believe that they relate to you when really they don’t, because see Cherry put on a mask throughout out our whole relationship and yeah I was gullible and I guess a doormat as well for Cherry, because every time Cherry lashed out I assumed it was her trust issues from her so called past of some of the things she once told me like her foster dad raped her under the foster family’s care and how the mother supposedly went along with it until Cherry was caught with her pants down fucking her underage foster brother that got Cherry kicked out of her last foster home, plus how her foster home would lock her in their basement as her punishment and I know how abusive foster homes can be from my own personal experience and maybe that why I became more compassionate for her lies but I stupidly believed at the time as it was the truth, as I didn’t know that Cherry was jerking my chain around at the time and that she was a scam artist just toying with my emotions and compassion for Cherry’s gain at my expense as a Rolling Stones song Sympathy for the Devil reminds me of what kind of person Cherry was, just a devil taking advantage of someone’s misfortune in this case it was mine that Cherry took advantage of with her so called damage persona or façade that she put on at the time.

 

The alleged rape accusation and why I am still angry

 

See Cherry when I brought her back to Palmer home as her staff requested, I found out through her staff that she hasn’t been taking her birth control pills and Cherry was hung up about wanting a baby as she informed when I questioned her on why were you stop taking your birth control pills? And Cherry told me that she wanted a baby and said that I would be a perfect father, but when I gave her a really check at the time on why I wouldn’t be a great father for her baby that Cherry at the time supposedly wanted, as Cherry did take well to rejection as the rape accusation was a result of that because 48 hours later she was telling Farrah this fabricated lie of how I forced myself onto her when that wasn’t ever the case, as I have said before I asked her if she wanted to have sex with me? And Cherry never respond back, so I backed off, only for Cherry in a middle of a Star Trek Voyager episode asked me I thought that you wanted sex? And I replied I do, but you never answered me and she says I did with my body language and I told her that I am not stupid and you’re not a mute and do you know how many rapists have used body language as their defend and reason why they raped, than the next thing I know I was under a rape investigation by Palmer home and if you knew how easy it is for someone like me to be labeled and stigmatized, you would understand my anger and hatred for Cherry, because my life could have been over and I could have been seen and put on the sex offender registry that could have furthered ruined my life as I would have been held to this stigma for the rest of my life if the odds weren’t in my favour at the time of her absurd and outrageous claims, plus if Cherry would have gotten her wish and I did end up getting her pregnant. I would have been locked into a custody battle to get rights to see my kid where I don’t need that headache plus I don’t think that is fair to the child as well, plus it turned out that Cherry and Chad concocted this rape accusation to get rid of me like in the same manner Chad helped another female residence to frame Tim and destroy his life, plus Cherry was using this  rape accusation as excuse for why she came back late for her curfew and tried to use this rape accusation as her leverage so she fabricated this rape accusation the whole time and then it turned out that there was either a miscommunication or misunderstanding on Palmer staff’s part so that’s what Zed told me when he laid his guilt trip me on why I should take Cherry back and I stupidly did, only for her to give me her crocodile tears and her phoney list of demands because Cherry had this twisted idea that I was going to cheat on her now that I was no longer associated Palmer home, therefore Cherry’s true colors and nature came out as she washed her hands of me as I came to realized that I was just another cattle being lead to the slaughterhouse or death maze to be lined up for a bullet to my head and have my integrity and pride displayed like meat in a grocery store and that there was ultimately nothing that I could have said or have done that would have alter my fate as I was only livestock to her to be ultimately lead to the slaughter, in her game that was her death maze, plus like a solider that just came back from war she left me with shell shock or post-traumatic stress disorder or better known as PTSD as Cherry didn’t just murdered my integrity and pride  but also my confidence  leaving me to suffer with depression, suicidal thoughts, loneliness  and abandonment issues, but for most of you reading this you don’t see anything wrong with that! It’s just water under the bridge to you guys right? Because hey from your guys’ logic I could just pick where I left off and start all over again right? I wished it was that easy but it’s not, because of Cherry and other circumstances in my life I haven’t been able to move on with my life, hell! Because of my abandonment and trust issues I haven’t dated anyone in over nine years or been in another sexual relationship if anything I remain reclusive, but no what Cherry and her rape accusation did was just pure innocent right? No harm no foul right? I’m just overreacting and making something more than what it really was right? Because to you guys my life means nothing because in yours and group home’s racial profiling ways is that I deserve this fate plus I’m a burden to society and to everybody, a trouble maker with no future in you asked some of my past staff. But Cherry had the right to lead me blindly to the slaughter and rape me literally of my life because I am just expendable right?

 

The reunion from hell

 

See it was the end of January and the beginning of February when Cherry befriended me on Facebook and sent me a friend request and to the naked eye everything seemed right in the world when obviously I was wrong, after me and Cherry went our separate ways for about or more than five years me and Cherry didn’t talk until an ex-Palmer resident showed me her Facebook page and at first I didn’t think much of it, but there was this little part of me that was curious to see how Cherry was doing, but there was this fear, nervousness and paranoia being that our past is shaky, as Cherry hates my guts for whatever lame excuse she had conjured up in our relationship that she sabotaged from the beginning, but I muster up the strength not thinking that she would replied back to me as I quickly assumed that she would delete and block me anyways, so I didn’t see the harm in messaging her, because the chance of Cherry getting back to me was slim to nothing, so I took the risk anyways under my Songbird gimmick that was my Facebook account at the time and portend that I was looking for an old friend and even deliberately misspelled her name, hoping that my ruse would work and somehow to my surprised it worked as specifically she knew it was me and even question me if I am her old boyfriend though I never answered as I tried to steer the conversation in a different direction, but eventually she figured me out anyways when I informed her about a Palmer staff that she knew personally of their controversial passing and even let her know that Zed another Palmer  staff died of cancer not knowing that cancer would be my bleak future several months later, while when I thought that we had left on a good note I saw one of my spelling mistakes and I wanted to fix it and resend it only to find out after 6 hours of talking with Cherry that Cherry had blocked me on Facebook, anyways my Songbird account which didn’t use my real name got shut down by Facebook without giving me a reason why even when I tried to verify myself and send them all the ID that Facebook required Facebook still shut my account down for what they called suspicious activity either way I opened another Facebook account and another 2 or 3 years passed before I would talk to Cherry again, this time I was going through my Cancer treatments for the second time as for August 2015 the cancer doctor informed me that my so called curable cancer is back and afraid that my time was limited or that I had a pending death sentence waiting for me, I informed as many people that I have bad blood with my heartfelt sincere apology for anything I might have done, basically only my two controversial ex-girlfriends from Palmer home ever got back to me, one didn’t wanted to believe it as she is afraid of death and change even when I showed her pics of me at the hospital hooked to a cancer machine she still didn’t want to accepted it as she asked me not to send her anymore pics or talk about my death and I respected her wished while the other one name Cherry 6 months later at the end of January 2016 almost seven months later in February 2016 as I only had one more cancer treatment of arsenic to go before my last cancer treatment called stem cell transplant that I had at the beginning of this year ironically in February of 2017, Cherry messaged me on Facebook giving me this fake get better “ I hope you are one of the lucky ones that kicks cancer’s ass” with a friend request that I know that I shouldn’t have accepted, but then I didn’t know it was one of her ruses, so we talked for days maybe a week or two mostly about stupid things like I saw that she has a PlayStation like me accepted what Cherry told me it wasn’t a PS4 like I have and I told her do you know that soon that PlayStation will stop making games for the PS3 and only make them for the PS4 only, stupid shit like that, than she asked me about my writing and more did I write based on our relationship and stupid me said yes not assuming when I should have especially with our past history and her being or acting like a bipolar the way her mood swings can have her be one minute Jackal than the next she’s Hyde, but forgetting that I say yes Cherry I wrote poems based on our relationship and even shared her the nicest ones I had or basically PG because I know how easy it is to upset her and I didn’t want to provoke her in anyway, plus I knew if I had said no that I didn’t write about our relationship, she would have hounded me until she got the answer she wanted, so to cut the middle man out I said yes and showed her some of my poems and long beholds she ends up in the end blocking me based on my poems plus acting if she never did anything wrong, basically pretending to have amnesia and belittling my anger in the process as if I don’t have the right to be angry of how our relationship was even than I stupidly apologized to her for the way I portray her in my poems even though that is outrageous and plus Cherry wanted to open the Pandora’s Box and get my thoughts on our relationship I just stupidly went along with it not thinking that she was going to ultimately block me, even when I tried to talk to her friend on twitter and have her hopefully talked Cherry down even explaining in full detail why Cherry was mad as I told her friend that we had a tumultuous kind of relationship that ended badly instead of Cherry’s friend helping me out she says there’s a reason why Cherry doesn’t wanted to talk to you and told me never to contact her again and also blocked me, once again feeding my obsessive anger.

 

Now the Good Memories or Not

 

See back in 2008 when I and Cherry were dating if that’s what you would call it? Because I am not sure if we actually dated or more likely it was all in my head or a virtual reality simulation as the jury are still out on if me and Cherry ever dated and even I am not sure if we did because she put on such a convincing Oscar-winning performance that the lines between us were so blur I’m still having a hard time telling if it was real or imaginary, hell! I’m not even sure if Cherry was ever a real person to start off if I was to be absolutely honest, as I felt either I was in the Matrix or Leonardo DiCaprio’s Inception or even Reboot the cartoon TV show that used to be on in the 90’s how every time Cherry was around I thought I would hear this voice say “Warning Incoming Game” at least than I would have some fair warning, but that wasn’t ever the case, see Cherry had this dream of being a haircut dresser and a tattoo artist basically open this haircut, tattoo parlor plus I don’t know who was the celebrity it couple of 2008 but every kept referring us as Avril Lavigne and me as Sum 41 and that kept annoying me, so I mashed Cherry’s haircut, tattoo parlor dream and how everyone was referring us as Palmer home’s it couple and came up with Gifted and Twisted her being the gift and me being the twist, but after we broke up I remodelled the Gifted and Twisted moniker or my insignia as my life is twisted and my talents make me gifted and that was how Gifted and Twisted was first introduce when it came on the scene so thanks Cherry for inspiring me, plus I forgot when me and Cherry broke up Palmer help me somewhat patent Gifted and Twisted insuring that Cherry couldn’t use it as her own or Palmer home was going to help me sue the bitch for everything she’s got if she stole my idea and claim it as her though I don’t know how sincere Palmer was, but it came off like Palmer was serious, so therefore from what I assumed Cherry never used my Gifted and Twisted name for any of her future business at least that’s what I keep telling myself.

 

Also if it wasn’t for Cherry’s involvement though I don’t think it truly matters in the end, but the only positive that I can spin out of our twisted relationship and more importantly is that it helps my creative artistic process and writing has always been my first love and the only true thing that I am good at and why Cherry mostly seek me out plus again also because of my status in Palmer as I was the closest thing to a kingpin or a God in Palmer and I know that’s blasphemy but that was the God honest truth and why anyone associated themselves with me and why residences aligned their blind allegiance with me because of their petty jealousy of how Palmer home singled me out with their favouritism, as Palmer home staff would blindly overlook my indiscretions and give me whatever I wanted or my heart desire  and be that I had the respect of Palmer home staff and endless credibility, though nobody in Palmer ever liked me as I was perceived as arrogant and obnoxious, but Palmer home was powerless as all the staff saw in me was pure gold that they wanted to harvest for themselves, therefore why Cherry was ever interested in me because of how superficial Cherry was she was blindly attracted to me like I was gold and she was a gold digger hoping to reap all the benefits for herself  at the expense of me and my household brand that I became to Palmer home that’s the only reason why Cherry was interested in me even if the truth hurts my pride and my confidence but that’s the sad truth if you look for the underline reasoning behind why Cherry dated in the first place, only to  discard me like a piece of garbage after I moved officially move out of Palmer home, hell! If truth be told that’s why mostly everyone in Palmer home eventually washed their hands of me because that’s how fake Palmer home and basically all group homes and foster homes are as I have come to realized that in my many years in the system, I don’t think I ever met one real person in my foster homes or group homes, because the staff like foster home sees me a nothing but a pay cheque while the residences or foster siblings either saw me as an scapegoat or as a stepping stone to further them up the ladder at my expense, therefore I became expendable to mostly everyone in my life even more Cherry who I thought that I had a chance with, but again I was just the cattle blindly being lead to the slaughter or death maze when truth be told.

Not Edited yet version of Death Maze or finished yet chapter from #SonofTwisted bio of mine

Son Of Twisted

Death Maze Chapter

 

This Michael Jackson verse from his Dirty Dina song describes my relationship with Cherry

(Verse2)

 

“She likes the boys in the band

She knows when they are coming to town

She’s every musician’s fan

After the curtains come down

She waits for those at the back door

For those who have prestige

Who promise fortune and fame

A life that’s so care free

She’s saying that’s okay

Hey baby, do what you want

I’ll be your night-loving thing

I’ll be the freak you can taunt

And I don’t care what you say

I want to go too far

I’ll be your everything

If you make me a star.”

 

That’s why I believe that Cherry dated me, so I can make her into an overnight star

Based on my popularity at Palmer home do too how Palmer was obsessed with my gifted for writing

And hoping that my talents would put them on the map

That is why Cherry singled me out from rest of the competition because of Palmer’s favouritism

That Palmer especially had for me as Cherry assume if I am getting a free ride why can’t she?

That’s what sparked all of the envious and jealousy and conflict with the other Palmer residents

And why I was used and abused and now why I am blacklisted mostly by everyone in Palmer Home.

 

Because see I was one month away from moving out to Community Living back in March of 2008

And after my last relationship went to hell, I vowed to myself that I wouldn’t date again,

Only to contradict myself as a young blonde hair girl came into Palmer Home

And the first my first impression I had as I thought that she was one of the staff’s daughters.

But I was wrong as she was a new resident or client to my group home.

 

We started to flirt back and forth at first be that she made it abundantly clear

That she has a no dating policy and creepily perceived us all as either her brothers or sisters,

Only for her too later on contradict herself.

 

See all of the male residents or clients were gunning for her, so at first I assumed I didn’t have a chance

Because when I am not writing I don’t have any confidence in myself,

Because what strangely made me popular in this house of horrors is that I have an uncanny ability with words since I was 12 years old, but all of my groups homes until this one came along usually vilify and discouraged my writing talents but for some unknown reason Palmer home embraced and nurture my talent,

Which put a target on my back as the other residents felt like Palmer home was favouring me more,

As I seemed to get special privilege and treatment in how Palmer home treated me compared to the others.

So most of the residents would be sycophants in hoping that the owner of Palmer home Dave would give them the same perks as me, basically I had no friends just people wanting to kiss my ass and that is sadly more true now

Especially when I left Palmer home as that’s when every bodies true colors showed as I am now blacklisted.

 

Now I recall the first time I nervously asked her out as me and this other resident both wanted her

And we both were in her sick game or competition for her heart,

And I didn’t realize it at the time until the end of our twisted abusive relationship had ended.

See me and chad were both in Mike’s convenience store up the road and around a corner from Palmer home

As I stupidly and enabling Chad’s bad habits, as I had a hard time making friends in Palmer home,

So I thought that I could buy off their loyalty in hopes for their friendships and knowing that Chad was using me

I still bought him cigarettes and Pro-lines, but at the time Chad gave me an ultimatum,

Threating me that if I asked Cherry out then Chad wouldn’t be my friend anymore,

But instead I scoffed and laughed at that and took it as a challenge on myself to hopefully give my confidence a boost. So I ran back to palmer home with the attention to ask the new girl out name Cherry and when I got back

Cherry was on the phone at the time when I asked her out, but what I didn’t know is the person that she was talking to was an old Foster under aged brother that she had inappropriate relations with do to him being a minor.

So I didn’t think much of that when cherry reviled that to me after she got off the phone,

But the way she sexually flirted with him on the phone did have me nervous at first but she reinsured me that her foster brother are now both friends and that I didn’t have anything to worry about and that was considered my first mistake and first signs I stupidly ignored when I shouldn’t have, but my masochistic side of me which started off as being noble because chad reviled his true intentions at the time that assisted me in winning over Cherry’s heart

As Chad told me because mostly every resident was on government disability and was receiving a cheque,

So chad’s intentions as it was with all of the females residents was to have sex with them and sponge off their disability cheques and then want nothing to do with them afterwards, so I regretfully reviled Chad’s intentions, thinking at the time that I was doing something noble and right but wishing now that I didn’t informed Cherry of Chad’s malevolent plan to win over her heart,

 

Also do to everyone having hidden motives at the time when I asked Cherry out, for an example Palmer home had a no dating policy due to past residents getting pregnant and how the male resident aged out which supposedly turn into an ugly custody battle over the baby and the father not wanting anything to do with the mother anymore, forced Palmer home to discourage any relationships from forming which mostly every resident ignored, on top of that the male residents who felt threatened by me would attempt to tell me that Cherry was a slut in hopes that I would back off and that they would have a better chance at winning Cherry’s heart if I was out of the way altogether. So they would try to deliberately sabotage my chances, but again my masochistic side of me wanted her and wasn’t going to let anyone try to discourage me from getting her and I wished I had listen to my instincts at the time, maybe then I would be in the mess I am in now if I did.

 

Now back to the first time when I encountered Cherry and assumed that she was one of the staff’s daughters.

See I didn’t live in Palmer home at the time though I was still under the Palmer banner, but I was a part of their independent program where I had my own apartment but I was still being supported by Palmer home, where they had me still come over to Palmer home few times a week for any additional support and to mingle with the other residents as well give me free meals out of it, so on this particular day I was at Palmer home as one of my schedule days to be there and I used to dye my hair a lot but only trusted the staff to help me dye my hair. Well the female staff was busy at the time, so I had my CD Walkman and was listening to my favorited Eminem album Marshall Mathers LP that inspired my creative juices as Eminem’s music has always done for me and I had my note book of poems I wrote in and didn’t think much of it at the time and as I was writing my latest one, I wanted to show the Palmer staff but again she was busy, so Cherry asked me if she could read my poems and at first her intentions seemed innocent, so I showed her not assuming she would give me any feedback on my hobby, but she did I was thrilled when she asked if she could keep some of my poems, I said sure, but honestly outside of Palmer home staff from reading my poems I didn’t expect that anyone else would care or want my poems, making me attracted to her even though I didn’t think I had an actual shot with Cherry, being that I assumed that she was a staff’s daughter at the time. Well Cherry wanted to help dye my hair as she had desires at the time to be a haircut dresser and wanted to use me as her guinea pig, but me being very narcissistic about my hair I said no to her, you can’t dye my hair, but that did stop us from still flirting. See as Palmer was beginning to have dinner, I would share with everybody my pop, since Palmer home’s juices was always water down because supposedly the residents get very hyper and start to acted out, so the staff made a habit of always watering down the juices, though not everybody like me got hyper and acted out, so I would bring my own beverages basically pop as I am known for and at the time I was sharing my pop with everybody while Cherry was playing footsies with me under the table, making me feel more confident later on to ask her out which I stupidly did when I shouldn’t have. But what also strengthens our bond was the slow dance we had at Farrah’s wedding. Farrah was a staff filling in at the time for one of the managers who was out having her second child basically on maternity leave, so Farrah ran the day to day operations in Palmer home and Farrah’s long time fiancé named after a pool game or maybe a US rocket ship that Tom Hanks and Kevin Bacon was once in before it blew up! As they both decided to tie the knot and  at the hall or banquet where Farrah invited all of Palmer home to go, as we dressed in our finest, where me and Cherry finally cemented our relationship if that’s what you want to call a relationship, because I felt like Ralph Wiggum from the Valentine episode where Lisa Simpson gives him a choo, choo train Valentine card that says choo, choo you choose me, because it seemed real when Cherry picked me out but like Miranda Hillard from Robin Williams classic Mrs. Doubtfire scene near the end of the movie when she discovers Robin Williams as Mrs. Doubtfire, by saying “ Daniel? Daniel! Oh my God. Oh my God! Oh my God! The whole time? Than angrily she says the whole time? That’s how I felt when the gig was up between me and Cherry as the veil was lifted on what was Cherry’s true intentions were all along as I found out later on at the end of our relationship.

 

{Now the plagiarizing scandal of me and Cherry’s twisted relationship}

 

See me and Cherry have been dating though I don’t know if that is what it should be called because in in group homes relationships were only formed because of the situation that you’re in and because that person can somewhat relate to you and understands you better than the staff or the psychiatrists could ever do and being that we all suffered from Stockholm Syndrome, though instead of falling in love with our captors we fell in love with each other and ultimately my bad judgment as I dated Cherry so I assumed, but that wasn’t ever the case as she only dated me do to my position, rank or status in Palmer home, which explains later on how I became expendable when I moved out of Palmer home into Community Living as Cherry’s true colors later on were reviled.

 

As every knows I am a writer and one day while I was dating Cherry she came back home from her school and was very excited about getting an A+ on one her pome she supposedly wrote and submitted to her art teacher in her art class and at first I just being a good boyfriend and giving her as much positive support though I never got to read what she wrote, No! Cherry decided to share it with two female staff that have been a fan of my poems for a long time named Betty-Lynn and  Gail and at the time that was Cherry first mistake that she made as I could read the staffs facial expression as I waited for Cherry who was in the staff office at the time and they were not to thrill with Cherry’s written poem as I found out later on as the staff reported her to her school which the school in returned expelled her for the rest of the remaining year based on plagiarism as it was my understanding at the time, which Cherry still holds a grudge towards me to this day as it was one of her reasons why she now still hates me. See the female staff Betty-Lynn and  Gail warned her not to show me as I have pride in my poems, but Cherry did and as expected I was pissed off that my poems were being stolen and I wasn’t receiving any credits for my poems, which began the friction in our relationship, but it wasn’t me that asked the staff to report her to her school that eventually expelled her for the rest of the remaining school year, that was the female staffs Betty-Lynn and  Gail who were fans of my poems and had read enough of my poems to know that it was my poems that Cherry was ultimately using to give herself a better graded in school, plus I forgot to mention as she didn’t think I had a clue on her promiscuous cheating ways and maybe this might be rumors I head well dating her? That she had a few high school lovers that she had behind my back while dating me, but do to me being insecure and I stupidly thought I had a chance with Cherry, but in actuality I was just pathetic, naïve and maybe desperate on my part at the time to the point where I overlooked her promiscuous cheating ways, though the signs were clearly always there like writing on the wall, but I just took it as graffiti and assumed that it was all in my head do to me having constant trust issues, that I have been battling since my last failed relationship, so I didn’t make a big deal out of it when I should have because I thought her feelings for me were absolutely genuine when clearly that wasn’t the case what so ever! I also knew that she never had any feelings for me the way that she would talk very sexually to her foster brother though she was under a restraining order from her foster parents, as from my understanding not to have any interactions with her foster brother, do to her being 19 and her foster brother being a preteen basically 12 or 14 years old when she had sex with him being that he was a minor at the time and either two scenarios of what I believe happened as I don’t know the full story, but either the most likely she got caught by the foster parents or it was a blackmail gone bad that got her kicked out of her last foster home and that’s why she ended up in Palmer home in the first place but that didn’t actually stop her from still interacting with her foster brother that she called nightly and spoke to him very sexual, but she always tried to insure me that her and her foster brother relationship was strictly platonic, but I always had my doubts and suspicions at the time but stupidly overlooked them for my selfish ego, because in group homes it’s all about your reputation as group homes have this stigma to be like high school meets prison mentality and Cherry was the most attractive female resident in Palmer home at the time and everybody was gunning for her in hopes that she would date one of us but sadly it turned out to be me who got choose and at first I was happy that Cherry picked me, but I now know why she picked me out of the many single horny bachelors in Palmer home and that was because of my status in Palmer home at the time. Which I know deep down hurt’s my pride and ego as a man to admit that because my feelings for her might have started off as juvenile, childish and immature at first, but once I assume that I understood her my feelings became real and noble and I really wanted to make us work out, but sadly that will never be.

 

{Now my stupid mistake\ life lesson}

 

See me and a few others including Cherry were playing a game of Monopoly in the summertime and one and the same female staff Betty-Lynn that was against Cherry’s plagiarism was also was playing with us and wearing this noticeable tank top with her cleavage hanging out, also I should note that the female staff Betty-Lynn was roughly around my age group, but staff have this teachers like clause of no dating, so from common sense everyone knew she was off limits, but it didn’t stop us from looking at her exposed cleavage well Cherry for some unknown reason was wearing a white turtleneck in the middle of summer as well me and Cherry was dating for a few weeks by now and I always believe in being honest but on this particular day I was too honest as Betty-Lynn the female staff that I liked as any guy would be sexually turned on by her exposed cleavage and as Betty-Lynn went to answer her ringing cellphone which put our game on hold as Betty-Lynn was taking a smoke break and as well talking on the phone outside, so Cherry  asked me what I thought was a metaphorical or hypothetical question at the time and that was would I fuck Betty-Lynn? I replied back with a yes! Assuming that Cherry knew that nothing realistically could ever happen or that I was being interrogated, but instead unexpectedly all hell broke loose as Cherry flipped over the table and the Monopoly board before storming off to her bedroom and destroying it and the older polish staff name Zed shook his head and said to me here’s some good advice for you Curtis and that is never tell a women especially if she is your girlfriend that you have the hots for some other girl as women are very territorial and jealous and don’t want to feel like their man is shopping somewhere else Zed says to me and I replied to Zed don’t worry I’ll make this right LOL! Which I obviously didn’t as I told Cherry though the crack of her bedroom door that if me, Betty-Lynn and you were to have a threesomes I promise when I get to my Cumming point I’ll make sure I’ll cum in you and that only made Cherry that much more pissed off where Cherry was calling me every name in the book while destroying her bedroom more and that’s when Betty-Lynn returned from her smoke break and was wondering what’s all the commotion and why is Cherry upset? Zed replies back because Curtis told her that he would sleep with you basically fuck you and the Betty-Lynn got mad at me and went into Cherry’s room to try to calm her down, also Betty-Lynn if I recalled slapped me while telling her boyfriend and now her husband what I said to Cherry, which had me scared because I felt that he might show up and beat me up for hitting on his girlfriend and now wife but thank God that he never showed up that day. Well I apologized to Cherry  later on that day and it seemed that everything between me and Cherry went back to normal so I assumed which turned out to be a mistake as Cherry forever held a grudge for me for the rest of the remainder of our twisted symbiotic relationship as I felt plus I would never cheat on a woman I am dating, but I do have eyes and I am not blind and I really thought it was a metaphorical or hypothetical and not an interrogation question or a interrogation tactic from Cherry, as I didn’t know that she would have immaturely reacted this way being that she was my second relationship at the time in Palmer home as most of my group homes I came from were all boys homes, so I didn’t have much interacted with women or girls until I got to Palmer home and was forced into my first and failed relationship if I am to explain my actions and that was my bad, but I thought this story was funny be if it’s immature for what it was worth at the time when Cherry was mad at me for telling her that I would fuck Betty-Lynn and as you the readers  will find out that I have a habit of looking for negative reactions as my positive reinforcement because too me people used to think that I was too serious and that I needed to lighten up so I did, by making jokes out of everything that happens in my life but those same people now find it to be obnoxious and overplayed.

 

{Now Cherry’s Rape Accusations}

 

Before I get into Cherry’s alleged rape accusation\ allegation or as I as I understand it now to be miscommunication between Cherry and the staff when Cherry made this absurd claims, let me set the scene by giving you all a history lesson of past events that lead to this point in time.

 

See I tried to close the deal with Cherry a few times though unfortunately unsuccessfully, But I can recall a few times I tried like this one time where I was invited to go swimming, but I usually didn’t like hanging out with Palmer home do to me having a lone wolf like personally plus the Palmer residents didn’t know or cared how to behave in community when they did their outings and this outing to the pool was no different, but do to me I was trying to be supportive to Cherry, but I said to her that I couldn’t go anyways as I don’t have any swimming trunks, plus I can’t swim do to some near drowning death experience I had that deterred me from swimming, but for Cherry I went anyways after the staff convince one of the residents I think his name was Duke and he let me used his Swimming trucks because I was usually particular in wearing other people’s cloths also because Palmer residents weren’t big on cleanliness, but Duke was one of the few people like me who cared about his appearance and hygiene, so I took him up on his offer for his swimming trucks and headed out to Richmond Hills public pool that was up the road from Palmer home and when I got there I stayed in the shallow end of the pool where Cherry was grinding up against me in the pool which I didn’t mind at the time and Cherry wanted to have sex in the unisex bathrooms and again this shows the favouritism that staff have for me because usually staff opposed residents from having sexual relations do to Palmer’s no dating policy but the staff made an acceptation for me and Cherry by telling us that we are both consenting adults and Palmer trusted me as I wasn’t working an angle like the other residents that just want to used and abused each other due to relationships were never treated as sacred as it was like being at a live Jerry Springer live taping the way the residents would fornicate and then turn on each other weekly. But beyond that let me take you all back to the story, see there was a resident name after a bible character named Cornelius and I think he had O.D.C. disorder why I say that he was very punctual with his smoke break and he had to have his cigarettes or all hell breaks loose if he doesn’t get his cigarette on time and it was his time for a cigarettes, but I think the staff forgot to bring them assuming we all would be back before his next cigarette break.

But that wasn’t the case, so Cornelius started to have one of his usual tap and tantrums and began to act out at the public pool and thinking that this might be the night that I get luck and score with Cherry I offer to give Cornelius a cigarette from my pack of Du Maurier I think I was smoking at the time, but the staff said no Cornelius can wait, which only made Cornelius escalate that much more to the staff had no choice but to bring us all back to Palmer home, therefore me and Cherry didn’t get to have sex in the public pool unisex bathroom as we both hope.

 

Second time me and Cherry tried to have sex was at the park down the street from Palmer home where mostly all the Palmer residents hang out. I believe it was a nice hot spring day and I and Cherry were making out on the park bench when a huge shadowy figure eclipsed us like a solar eclipse and at this time I had an erection or a boner, but Cherry at the last minute moved out of the way and this female resident who has always had a crush on me, but I didn’t ever feel the same way for her as this might sound shallow but I am not into overweight females, but this female resident inconveniently sat on my erection basically killing the mood and me being pissed off I confronted her boyfriend at the time who was a male resident living in Palmer, who was also at the park sliding down on the park’s slide and I asked him why are you guys here? To which he replied my girlfriend wanted to go to the park and to make things more awkward and unusual he told me Cherry and his girlfriend is supposedly dating and I replied back what the fuck????! What do you meaning dating? He replied back like they are two lesbians only for me to believe that Cherry was mad at me and probably still holding a grudge against me because of how I told her a while ago how I would fuck Betty-Lynn when we were playing Monopoly and she asked me when Betty-Lynn the female attractive staff went out for her smoke break and phone call that Betty-Lynn got her cellphone when I thought at the time it was a hypothetical not an interrogation tactic question when I was being honest with Cherry and didn’t think she would get so angry with me and still hold a grudge against me for something that was so childish and petty and more importantly I apologize for and tried numerous times to make it right, but Cherry is one of those girls that I found out while I was dating her that she was vindictive and vengeful assuming why she went behind my back and lesbian relationship with this fat unattractive female Palmer resident, but I went along with it but I had my doubts all along which this female staff name Lorna who was a big bible thumper attacked me on not getting with the times and being bias by being against Cherry’s  lesbian relationship. Hell! I remember this one time where Chad told Cherry how I wouldn’t go down on a woman orally do to my weak stomach to smells and taste as I know that women pee, poo and bleed from their vagina and anal therefore I am opposed to putting my face anywhere near a women’s pussy and Chad told this to Cherry in hopping he could score points with her if he wasn’t already having sex with Cherry being that clearly while dating me she made herself sexually available to everyone in Palmer plus her sexual nightly phone calls to her underage foster brother didn’t help though she kept saying it was platonic and that nothing serious was ever between them. But Cherry confronted me about not wanting to go down orally on a woman, but asked me you wouldn’t mind me if I went down on you and gave you a blowjob and I said no I wouldn’t mind at all and Cherry says why? Because that’s your mouth and I am not forcing or inquiring you to go down on me therefore it is your choice, well Lorna the staff overheard this conversation and called me a hypocrite and told me that I am a chauvinistic pig as Lorna was against Cherry going down on me, but as I told Cherry I also told Lorna the same thing as well if Cherry wants to go down on me and give me a blowjob that’s her choice, her mouth as I am not holding a gun to her head and forcing her, but Lorna missed the point and kept on verbally attacking me, also I remember one time me putting a flashlight down this fat ugly girl’s mouth, basically Cherry’s lesbian partner and joking around by screaming down her throat “Hey Cherry if you can hear me down there? Don’t forget to take a shower before coming to my place if you still are? Which Cherry never did come over to my apartment not until the second night before I was to move out from Palmer due to me being 23 years old and have obviously aged out as Palmer keeps residents until they are 21 years old but I and a few were the acceptation.

 

Also Cherry would conveniently take showers when I was supposed to leave Palmer home and go back to my 100 Cedar avenue Richmond Hill apartment as I had to leave around 11 o clock when the nightshift staff come on as that was a part of my agreement when I visited Palmer on my schedule days, but Cherry would always wanted me to give her a goodnight kiss before I left and she would always come to the bathroom door in a towel and being that she was a very attractive young 19 year old girl it took every little bit of strength not to rip off her towel as most of the male residence want me to and I knew why, but I never did.

 

Also Cherry liked to flirt with the male residence and get me jealous and upset and I remember this one time where Cornelius was clearly hitting on Cherry in front of me at the dinner table in Palmer and it anger me so much that I got up and man handle Cornelius and put him up against the wall where they had all the numbers to call and I punished the wall leaving a whole and told Cornelius that would be your head next time if you hit on my girlfriend Cherry again and the sad thing is, is that Cherry got off on getting me jealous and upset that I think Cherry liked seeing me get angry, but whatever right?

 

Now to that unfortunate Saturday at my apartment that I can’t forget or let go due to how Palmer having a prejudice history and how you’re easily labelled and stigmatize and how this is put on your public group home records for the rest of your life though somehow I got luck and maybe because a male resident from Palmer’s past ended up having his whole life ruin by this scandal as Tim the male resident had this unfortunately happened to him that he has from my knowledge never recovered from and that was a rape allegation which almost became my fate as well thanks to Cherry. As Tim was in the middle of having sex with one of the ugly female’s residence and the Palmer staff were having their usual staff meeting when I guest went upstairs as I wasn’t there for this as I was there to hear the aftermath of this and why Tim lived temporary Palmer’s first adult apartment program that got later shut down and where I and someone else became recipients of our own independent apartment program but that doesn’t happen until much later when I met Cherry  and supposedly Tim got caught with his pants down having sex with a female resident and when they were pulled apart and interrogated for their side of the story the female to get herself out of hot water cried rape and before you knew it poor Tim was blamed and arrested and charged only for the staff to later on find out it was all a lie conjured up by the female and her partner in crime Chad as I overheard Chad confess and brag about how easy it was to get away with framing Tim for rape while Chad was having one of his smoke breaks and I told the staff but it was too late for the staff to take any action therefore Tim’s charges later on got dropped but a little too late unfortunately as Tim was already victimized and stigmatized by this rape accusation and now fast forward to me and Cherry 3 years later where Cherry tried pulling off the same stun with the help no other than Chad who thought it would be successful all over again but not the case fortunately for me as I dodged a bullet.

 

But see it was Saturday afternoon and I finally convinced Cherry not knowing of her malevolent and sinister plan that that waited for me to come over to my apartment and which Cherry did, as I intend on having sex with Cherry, but again I didn’t know of her malevolent, twisted and sinister plan to make me her fall guy as I was naive and dumb at this point, I bring her back to my place hoping to get luck while I asked Cherry once or twice do you want to have sex? No answer from Cherry so I backed off only a half hour in and us watching Star Trek Voyager episode on my TV that only got channels through a TV antenna as I had no cable do to me not being able to pay off my Roger’s box bill therefore Roger’s cut my cable services way before I met Cherry thanks to Chad ordering gay porn and running up my Roger bill to 800 dollars, but my friend Duke who also lived in Palmer gave me an old TV he found and fixed up as Duke love dumpster diving for old electronics fixing them up and then reselling them. While like I said basically a half an hour later when a commercial came on Cherry turns to me asks me I thought you wanted sex? And I replied yes I did but you never said anything and Cherry says back body language did and I said jokingly not knowing that I might have plant this idea in her head, do you know how many rapists have used body  language as their excuse for why they raped a women as I sarcastically said it and also I am not dumb and you’re not a mute therefore you can give me a verbalize respond if you want to have sex with me or not and Cherry said yes and took me by the had to my bedroom as I didn’t know the ringer on my house phone was on as I usually out of habit keep my phone off as the residence like to call me night and day and harass all hours and plus I like sleeping in the day time as I am a Nighthawk or night owl that stays up all night and I don’t go to be until the early morning, but as I found out later on my phone ringer was on that day, but me and Cherry were in my bedroom and being that Cherry is the only second women I have been with I was a little gun shy, but as soon as Cherry  pulled her pants down half way and showed me her tits I was good to go but stupid me I forgot to wear a condom and as I was inside her my phone began to ring nonstop and I tried to ignore it, but my phone just kept on ringing and ringing until I told Cherry I’ve gotta pick up my phone see whoever this is and see what they want, so I pulled out of her and went to pick up my ringing phone and it turned out to be her staff from Palmer home calling informing to bring her back right now and I said trying to be discreet and told the staff I am in the middle of something right now can I bring Cherry back later and the staff said no, you either bring back now or I’ll called the cops and I said for what? I’m just up the street from you guys as I was getting defensive and the staff still demand Cherry  to come home or I’ll called the cops and say either Cherry  has A-walled or you are holding her hostage and I said find I am bringing Cherry back right now than got off the phone and told Cherry the staff want you back at Palmer right now so we have to go and I went to my bathroom and finished myself off and sprayed her and myself with AXE body spray to try to cover up the smell of sex and head back to Palmer home as soon as me and Cherry have arrived we were barraged and interrogated first the staff asked her questions on why she was late while I waited for my turn in Chad’s bedroom upstairs in Palmer and Chad says to me you guys must have had sex if you both reek of Axe and I said yes than it was my turn to go into the staff office and answer questions and the first and only question the staff asked me is did I wear a condom? And I said it’s not your business if I wore a condom while the staff kept repeating the question over and over until paranoia kicked in and I said does Cherry have a STD I should be worried about? And the staff kept saying that’s confidential you would have to ask Cherry and I replied back sarcastically like Cherry is going to tell me if she has an STD? As residences are vindictive and looking for payback therefore Cherry would never be honest with me and the staff asked me again did I wear a condom? That’s when I got angry and said if you guys are going to tell me that Cherry has a STD than when I am on my eventual death bed I am going to go Columbine on your guy’s ass and killed every one of you mother fuckers before I die and the staff panic and said no Cherry doesn’t have an STD than what? The staff’s says that Cherry hasn’t been taking her birth control pills and then I went and confronted Cherry about not taking her birth control pills and for some reason Cherry was on this wanting a baby agenda and Cherry says to me I would make a great father but I told Cherry I don’t want a baby and no I wouldn’t make a great father as I am broke, secondly my family has bad genes and she replied I also have bad genes in my family, but Cherry nothing like my family! As there’s a good chance that the child could be Down syndrome or suffer from autism or learning disabilities or worst the child could grow up to be a pedophile or Canada’s next serial killer like my father who is a bad man. After that Cherry backed off and I apologized and bought her pop and went downstairs to sleep on Palmer’s couch where Cherry came downstairs and asked me do you want to have sex here at Palmer because it’s just you and me down here and I said no because if we get caught they will kick me out as well kick you out and we would be both be homeless if we get caught.

 

Well Monday came and me and Betty-Lynn were packing up my stuff to move to Community Living on April 30th basically Betty-Lynn’s birthday, so while I was packing up Gail the staff came in and started asking me all these bizarre questions, did I forced myself in anyway when I was having sex with Cherry? Did I force Cherry to have sex with me against her will as I went from being confused to being paranoid because I recalled this once happing to another Palmer resident named Tim and how it didn’t work out for him as well I notice a cop cruiser outside my window and Betty-Lynn told Gail that Curtis wouldn’t hurt a fly as I have known him for 7 years and this is the first time I have ever heard of this and if it wasn’t for Betty-Lynn standing for me that day I don’t know what my future would be, while I packed up while watching the cop cruiser and Betty-Lynn kept on insuring me that the cop isn’t here for me and Betty-Lynn was right.

 

While later on that night the staff wanted me to come over for me and Chad’s goodbye party and I kept saying no and if I go over them in my current state of mind I might end up doing something that will get me charge by the police and that’s bash in Cherry’s skull if that bitch crosses my path, but the staffs kept on insisting that I go and I said you’re not worry about Cherry’s safety? And the staffs all said no while one staff took me to a store and bought me a few T-shirts, a CD Walkman and my favorited Eminem album the original Marshall Mathers LP album and therefore the staff bribing me to go I went and while the staff was cutting the cake Zed another staff pulled me aside and said how come you and Cherry are talking? And I said because the bitch tried setting me for rape so to me the bitch is better off dead and Zed told me that it was a miscommunication on the staffs part and not on Cherry’s end plus you two looked so good together as a couple and plus Curtis she the only girl you can get, so you don’t want to blow you chance on a miscommunication and alleged rape accusation, so I went and knocked on Cherry’s room to bring her a slice of the cake and Cherry in tears tells me she is sorry and that she didn’t mean to hurt me and like usual I bought into it when I shouldn’t have but I did stupidly and I stupidly took her back thinking that she was really sorry not knowing that this was all a sick game to her so therefore we made up and she thought I was still mad at her so to prove to her that I wasn’t upset I let her borrow my CD Walkman and my new Eminem album original the Marshall Mathers LP along with my new T-shirt not knowing that I was getting played the whole time by Cherry and that when we officially broke up and I had to give back her stuff which was only a picture of her and me sitting on the steps outside of Palmer home while she stole my all of my stuff, my CD Walkman and more importantly my Eminem album which nowadays I assumed Cherry  with her absolute hate towards me probably threw out all my shit not that I care and more as it’s the past and I have replaced my copy of Eminem’s album and on top of that I found out that Chad and Cherry both planed and conspired this rape accusation against me, as Chad told me that nobody likes me and everybody hated me and more importantly Cherry hates me the most which nowadays that’s not hard to believe that Cherry  conspired with Chad to try to get rid of me as Cherry hates me now but I can say it’s 100 percent accurate other than Chad has tried to frame other Palmer residences in the past more notably Tim with a rape accusation.

 

Now Break up and Aftermath

 

Now after Cherry’s infamous rape accusation and I stupidly took her back, I recall this one time right after I moved out of Palmer home straight into Community Living and I was heartbroken and sad for leaving all my friends behind, but more importantly Cherry behind I called Palmer home at night time and the overnight staff Lorna picked up and we spoke for a few seconds before informing me that Cherry was crying which I didn’t know was nothing but crocodile tears as I thought they were real I know stupid of me right? But I really cared about Cherry and I wanted to make things work out between us though that was never Cherry’s intentions as I later on found out. But Cherry was crying those infamous crocodile tears that I didn’t know was a work as I believe Cherry’s tears were real at the time and Lorna tells me that Cherry is upset and crying and said why? Because she misses you id my understanding as I guess that’s what Cherry told Lorna and I and Lorna believed it at the time, well Lorna passes the phone to Cherry who’s really putting Oscar-winning performance with those infamous crocodile tears and me trying to be supportive asked Cherry what will make you happy as Cherry ironically was worried that I was going to cheat on her and leave her though Cherry made a career of pulling the wool over my eyes and constantly cheating on me with every guy that came her way, but she was under this impression at the time saying the other Palmer residences were making these outrageous rumors that I am going to cheat on her when that was never my intention but whatever right? I stupidly went along with it to prove to her that I had no intentions of cheating on her with anyone I mean come on I mean I took Cherry back after she accused me of rape and I know the worst mistake I ever did I wished I had a time machine but I sadly don’t as Cherry gave me all these ridiculous demands of me calling her and visiting as much as I could plus I stayed on the phone until 5 in the morning with Cherry trying to cheer her and make her laugh with one of my corny jokes because I wanted Cherry to be in a good place as I know now looking back on it was one of my worst mistakes ever and a waste of both me and Cherry’s time especially now that I realized her  infamous crocodile tears was all an elaborate scheme to feed on my emotions and kindness.

 

While after that infamous night phone call with Cherry of me speaking to her for hours to insured her that I wasn’t going to cheat on her, but the first month which was May 2008 Cherry answered all of my phone calls and we even went to the movies to see Pineapple Express a stupid drug comedy movie that I am not into but I compromised and took a bullet for her though it was one of the most awkward encounters I’ve had as this staff name Slava creepily chauffeured us around all night as he drove us to the movie theater as Slava the staff wouldn’t let me or Cherry kiss or hold hands or even sit next to each other and if one of us had to go to the bathroom the other one would have to wait their turn until the other one came back. Hell! I and Cherry weren’t even allowed to have eye contact with one another unless Slava had approved of it. Which I think also might have caused the downfall of me and Cherry’s relationship as Slava was more than a overprotected bodyguard, as Slava I felt was out to sabotage me and Cherry’s relationship by any means necessary. As Slava was like Ned Flanders from the Simpsons episode called to Surveil with Love, Slava’s intentions might have meant well, but he came off more like a creepy uncle in the end, though I don’t think it really mattered in the end when it came to me and Cherry’s relationship as our relationship was doomed from the get go, this Slava memory just adds more layers to this cake that is me and Cherry’s doomed and gloomed relationship anyways plus I am not even certain if Cherry and our doomed relationship was even real or a figment of my imagination being that if Cherry was a real person and not a figment of my imagination Cherry was always a con artist that preyed on my kindness and emotions and because I just somewhat got out of a bad sticky relationship with another Palmer resident female relationship, maybe being that I am a very creative person with a wild imagination I might have unintentionally created this fictitious person I named Cherry to give my ego a needed boosted, as I felt like Homer Simpson in Don’t Fear the Roofer episode where Homer was the only one who could see the roofer Ray Romano as everyone else until the end of the episode thought it was Homer’s figment of imagination and that’s how I can mostly described mine and Cherry’s relationship if you can call it that? As I am still somewhat dumbfounded and traumatized by me and Cherry’s so called relationship because by June 2008 that’s when I came to my senses and realized that Cherry was conning me all along. Because after seeing Pineapple Express with Cherry and that’s when the blinders were truly off and Cherry reviled her true nature or as Eminem once put it “Can the real slim shady please stand up?” or in this case can the real Cherry please stand up? And she did or like the Exorcist movie when the priest asked the devil or demon to reveal itself and Cherry did just do that as I was introduced to the real Cherry and not this victim that she originally made herself out to be, but the con artist succubus that she is.

 

As I recalled back in June of 2008 as Cherry inquired of me to do I would visit and call her as she asked me to, so she knows that I am not cheating on her and by June Cherry was playing this phone tag and now at first it might have come off as Cherry was busy at least to the naked eye to how it was seen, but that wasn’t ever the case as she had one of her fan club Palmer resident speak on her behalf well in the background Cherry was feeding this Palmer resident his lines by telling as if I am stupid that Cherry isn’t home when truly Cherry was home, but just like my last relationship Cherry was having affair behind my back with this guy that she is currently getting engaged to as I found out  much later and was secretly in a scandalous relationship with him without giving me any heads up, but I realized that Cherry’s behaviour was very suspicious the way she kept on blowing me off as if I did something wrong when I never did, other than my biggest mistake was me forgiving and taking her back after she tried to frame me with a rape accusation that was never true as Cherry was on probation by Palmer home for her alleged sexual relationship with a minor that was her foster brother that got her kicked out of her foster home and placed into Palmer group home’s care and when I attempted to have sex with Cherry not knowing that I was going to get blue balled for my efforts, plus Cherry was on this baby kick as Palmer’s staff reviled to me that Cherry wasn’t taking her birth control pills than basically the next day when Palmer was going to consequence and punish her for being late by taking away a few weeks of her Community time and ground her to Palmer home or her bedroom as she wasn’t allowed to go outside do to her being late as she was only allowed a few hours outside of Palmer if the staff permitted and approved it as long as Cherry comes back on her scheduled time to take her meds as I didn’t know that Cherry was on probation until afterwards, as Cherry was getting handed her punished by Palmer on the following Monday after I had sex with her on Saturday and thought that she was on some baby kick, but it turns out she had something more sinister in mind to get herself out of hot water by telling Palmer’s staff the reason why she was late is because she was being held hostage and being held against her will and that I was allegedly raping her is why she came back late, being that was never the case because as I said before I asked Cherry if she wanted to have sex? And Cherry never respond back to me therefore I left it alone only for her a half hour later while we our watching Star Trek Voyager episode she asked me I thought that you wanted to have sex? And I replied I do but you never answered me at all so therefore I assumed that you didn’t than Cherry replies back to me something to do with her body language and I told her that I know you can speak, I’m not stupid and you’re not a mute plus do you know how many rapists have used the body language defends to say why they raped this person therefore Cherry is it a yes or a no on wanting to have sex with me? Cherry said yes and took me by the hand back to my bedroom and well I assumed that my ringer was off as usually my ringer is I headed with Cherry to my bedroom but unfortunately do to so much time passing by plus the fact that Cherry was my only second sexual encounter I was gun shy or nervous as I at first couldn’t get erected until I saw some of Cherry’s lady parts as she only pulled her pants half way down and showed me her tits but didn’t take off her shirt or bra ever and on top of that I forgot the Trojan condom that was sitting on my radiator as I didn’t have a bed just a mattress on the floor, but as I said I got blue balled as my phone kept on ringing and ringing to where I told Cherry I had to pick up this ringing phone which turned out to be her Palmer staff demanding me to bring Cherry back to where I went into the bathroom finished myself off and also told Cherry that her staff want her back home right now and so I did and then I got confronted by the Palmer staff if I wore a condom several times until I freaked out and made a columbine death threat statement assuming that Cherry had an STD that the Palmer staff were not telling me do to Palmer’s home’s confidential agreement where the staff told me that Cherry hasn’t being taking her birth control pills only for me to find out that Cherry’s birth control pills was a cover up to this alleged rape allegation so Cherry who love painting herself as a victim and loves to put the blame on everyone but herself tried to make me her fall guy so her Community time was it taken away for her being late and then I find out later on that Cherry and Chad conspired and conjured up this alleged rape accusation to stick it to me because they both don’t like me and wanted to get rid of me and this was the only thing that they could come up at the time plus Chad was always had a infatuation for Cherry and this was Chad and Cherry’s way to supposedly get me out of the way so Chad could have Cherry to himself.

 

There was this one time I recall where everybody went to see Kevin Spacey’s 21 movies where Chad alleged that him and Cherry who both by the way as I recall were sitting in the middle while the two staff Zed and Lorna were sitting between them. But Chad claims that once the lights went out in the movie theater that Cherry gave him a blowjob while supposedly in front of two staff Zed and Lorna and that Zed and Lorna just ignored it as if it never happen as Chad would brag to us residences after the movie was finished only for me to be the only one to poke holes in his so called blowjob story while everyone who was there accept maybe a few believed to this day that Chad got a blowjob by my ex-girlfriend Cherry and as much as it might be unlikely and Chad is just trying to make noise, but Cherry by nature did acted like a slut and did mislead most of the male residences, plus the alleged affairs with be with her minor foster brother she had sex with or with her classmates in her school or Cherry’s lesbian relationship with one of the female residences or her going behind my back and was engaging in a secret relationship with a guy that she claims that she met online that ended up being my replacement in the end, all because he drove a yellow knocked off sports car Mitsubishi Eclipse Spyder I believe or because he had his parents guilt money that pays for his cushy lifestyle, his rent and Cherry rent  and all the things that most of us have to work for to get she gets it for free as Cherry is nothing more now than a freeloader,  just like when she was with me she portend to be a victim of  circumstances as Cherry one told me she was in this alleged car accident with her underage foster brother that she was having sex with as they both stole her foster parents car and took it out for a joy ride only to crash it into a street light post and Cherry claims this to be true if you was to look at Cherry you would notice that she has no identifiable car accidents scars that I assume comes with a car accident, also Cherry  told me that her foster family used to lock her in their basement as well that her foster dad was raping her every night and that her foster mother supposedly knew about it but did nothing other than give her blessing on it, though I don’t know if this is Cherry just playing the victim card or if any of these terrible things actually happened to her as she claims and I found this out is because she wanting my blessing on her poems and wanted my writing tips at the time and I told her if you want to be taken as a serious writer like me than you need to be honest with your art and fans is what I told Cherry, not knowing that this was one of her many cons  and that Cherry had no ambition to be a writer it was her sticking out her feelers to see if she found one of my weakness so Cherry can exploit and use it in her pulling the wool over my eyes when we dated briefly back in 2008, as she played her con game for a while for at least 3 weeks in June because when I’d visited Cherry she would strangely distance herself and come up with all these excuses that she was busy with school work, but really what I think was going on and eventually found out was Cherry was having a secret affair with this rich guy she found online named Ken who as I said before drove a knock off sports car Mitsubishi Eclipse Spyder and had his parents guilt money to send on Cherry as I found out the hard way is that Cherry was one of those superficial kind of girls or gold diggers as some might refer them as either way she was only with and still with this guy based on his wealth so she can sponge off of him as Cherry later on with my doing of having the other residences of Palmer as my surrogates that I had everyone bullied her, where Cherry fear for her life because the female residences were jealous and insecure as I exploited their common fears of her stealing their boyfriends away because on the flip side I told all the male residences how easy Cherry was sexually so basically I had her run into this guy’s arms when she turned 21 years old as I made as I made her year and a half a living nightmare where she would lock herself in her room as a recluse as I made Cherry feel unwelcome in Palmer home after all the underhanded things she did to me in our twisted relationship as I am a very vindictive person when I feel cheated and manipulated and that’s what Cherry did to me throughout our short lived history.

 

Again I didn’t know our relationship was over than I had a suspicious feeling that it was and Cherry clarified that when weeks after her phone game of having her fan club of male horny residences talk on her behalf while she directed them in what to say while she was always in the background, having them tell me she’s not there when clearly I can hear her in the background, but do to me being voiceless and powerless in this situation as Palmer staff made it clear to me that I no longer live or associated and that Cherry was their main priority and if I didn’t like it than Palmer home staff will have my phone number blocked if this becomes a problem therefore automatically siding with Cherry even if Cherry is being abusive towards me as Palmer home allowed Cherry to play her sick phone cat and mouse like phone game with me for three weeks in June of 2008 before Palmer finally got her to actually stop playing her phone games and speak to me and I said hi, and when Cherry didn’t respond back I said sarcastically it looks like we have broken up? And Cherry replied back with Yeap! Like she was Dave from Storage Wars TV show but only with one Yeap before hanging up and never giving me a reason why she broke it off with me other than Cherry fuelled my theories why, so after Cherry broke it off with me I headed to a bar near where I lived came back and found her cell number and portend to be drunk so I can air out my grievances on her voicemail as I called her every derogatory and inflammatory female remark I could think of like the classics slut, whore, tramp and then I went on a religious rant in saying I hope Cherry you burn in hell! Also to play up the fact that I was drunk so I made it seem like a drunk rant, but here is a funny fact about me I don’t drink anything with alcohol plus if I drink I keep an eye on my limit of how much I have drank plus the drinks I order are daiquiri this pink Pepto Bismol drink that I specifically asked the bar tender to only put a littler rum in my drinks as I am not big on alcohol making my drunken voicemail seem like I am in a drunk state but my plan was too get even with Cherry and maybe get the last word in, but the Palmer staff told me that Cherry wanted to charge me with verbal assault but the staff were able on one condition that I don’t ever call Cherry’s personal cellphone again or her on Palmer’s kids line that I stay away from her and don’t interacted with her at all which I did what they asked of me and threw away her personal cellphone number, instead what I should have done is wrote her cell number on a public bathroom stall and let all the pervs called her since she always made herself in our relationship as always sexually available like she was an escort business or a brothel anyways. But that however that didn’t stop me from turning her friends against her and basically and eventually systematically all of Palmer home as well, forcing her hand to prematurely without weighing her other options to run into the arms of her rich Prince Charming or maybe in this case, sorry Cinderella! But her ugly rich stepsister’s arms, if the rumors that I’ve heard are true and that is that he is a control freak and abusive either emotionally or physically or both, so I guess karma in a way has finally caught up with her, but again I doubt that very much so.

 

 

See in June or July of 2008 after it was public that I and Cherry have broken up Chad who as I have said before as always had a sick obsessive infatuation for Cherry trying to make his move on her and not that I care or is it my business who Cherry goes out with as it’s her life and not mine, but in this case it became my business as Chad reviled to me that he was going on Palmer home’s yearly camping trip only to fuck Cherry and stick it to me as Chad was a very jealous person especially of me because Chad always wanted Cherry to himself and if I knew what Cherry plans were with me, as her love for me was never real just a figment of my imagination as Cherry solely dated me because of my status in Palmer home that’s why I believed why Cherry deliberately sabotaged our relationship right from the get go with her first offense of plagiarizing my poems, her ongoing inappropriate sexual relationship with her underage foster brother that she kept saying was only platonic though I always had my doubts or the several times of her infidelity be if it was a guy she met in her high-school or her now current rich guy she is with now with his knocked off yellow sports car or her leading on the males residences in Palmer home or her short lived lesbian affair with one of the female residences or more importantly her alleged and false rape allegation, if I knew all these things prior before our infamous relationship started I would have not fight for her or got in the way or threw my hat in the ring for a shot, as I would have just let Chad have her all to himself, only if I had a time machine to erase this infamous crime scene and rewrite history, but sorry Chad I can’t change the circumstances back then, but I wished I could than we all would be happy and none of this bull shit that was me and Cherry’s relationship wouldn’t have ever taken place, but unfortunately I can’t change that even if I wanted, either way I who hates going camping especially with Palmer because most of the kids are immature and annoying either for making annoying noises when everybody tried to sleep, bring drugs to the camp site where cops were mostly called every day or constantly arguing and bickering and getting into fights, plus on top of that there is really nothing meaning no TV, no PlayStation or Xbox 360 nothing a bunch of hooligans, nature and outhouses, that’s why Farrah granted my wish one year not to go camping and founded it weird that all the suddenly I wanted to go and she and the rest of Palmer home assumed that I wanted to go because of Cherry and hoping that I could fixed our broken relationship but I told Farrah one of the supervisors of Palmer home that I was done with Cherry and my only reason is because Chad told me that he wanted to sleep or fuck Cherry to get back at me and I wanted a place where I can dump his body, because I told Chad that the Cherry wound was still fresh and hasn’t become a scar yet so Chad please back off before I do something that we both will come to regret only one of us will actually get to feel it while the other one will be in a shallow grave if you don’t take the hit or warning I am giving you, But Chad one of those assholes that loves rubbing salt in your wounds as Chad enjoy other people’s suffering, so therefore I told Farrah of Chad’s plan where Farrah told Chad he also couldn’t go camping either, which might have disappointed Cherry but she probably she had sex with Chad anyways if not camping then somewhere else since Cherry made Chad her number two choice to date in Palmer home if I didn’t throw my name into the hat and won her heart over which again was one of my life’s biggest mistakes I ever made, as all of the hell Cherry put me through in the end wasn’t worth it ever! If I had my way to rewrite history.

My Revised Verse of Mine inspired by my #bipolar #highroller #exgf and #Eminem

So fuck relationships

Because relationships are like ships that sink

Or like stepping in fucking dog shit that stinks

But I guess that’s the price that I’ve gotta pay

For ignoring my fucking instincts

Because how was I to know that our love was jinx?

And that I was skating on thin ice inside your ice rink

And that you would almost bring me to a suicidal brink

Because now you’re all that’s on my mind when I think

Because here I thought at the time that we were in sync

And one of a kind that we would always be forever linked

But now for me to get over you I fucking need a shrink

Because the alcohol that I drink ain’t helping

Because here I am still stuck on the fact

On how we only dated for three months

As I gloated but not knowing that I was rocking the boat

And that you would be so fucking cut throat

As I only got the chance to hit your pink once

Before you traded me up for a coat made from minks

Diamond rings, Gucci bags, first class and sports cars

Yachts and an endless amount on your visa cards

While this same old song is what I still fucking sings

And cling onto, so yeah! I’ll admit that our love had a few kinks

That we needed to work out, but you never gave us a chance

You just watched from a far as our relation-ship was left to sink

While in your life boat, as I drown in the murdered that you wrote

As you eloped and moved on while I’m left to now mope and cope

With the fact that you’re now gone, but you’re still in my sniper scope!

My second half of my Random Verse inspired by my #bipolar #highroller #exgf and #Eminem\ @Eminem

She is a black widow in disguise

And I am just a fly caught in the middle

Wrapped up inside of her lies, set to die

As she had her escape plans and alibis

But in the end all she needed was acquittal

Like OJ. For her to get away with murder

And leave you all in the dismay

Of a love that was always risqué

As she walks away like a burglar

That just got parole in October

Portending to be sober

But my ghost knows

Even when the weather gets colder

So get ready to feel me likea cold wind blows

And don’t forget to look over your shoulder

Because no matter where you hide or lay low

Or where you go, I’ve always got my eyes on you ho

Because payback is a bitch that you still owe back pay

And like the creditors I’m hunting you like a predator

Random Verse of Mine inspired by MY #bipolar #highroller second #exgf and #Eminem

When it comes to love

I guess I am addicted

Because I just can’t get enough

Does that make me masochistic?

It must, because you were sadistic

But I still came back more optimistic

Even when my expectations were unrealistic

But I still tortured myself the way I revisited

This relationship that we had that was twisted

So I guess I am obsessive and masochistic

That misses the pain that came with your love

The bloodstains that remain in the aftermath

Of our psychopath-warpath that we both on

The long bloodbaths that we would take

Just to wash away all of the bloodstains

And mistakes from the night before

And watched our love go down the drain

Like we were trying to flush bags of cocaine

Before the cops came, bullet to the brain, Kurt Cobain!

Forget rehab; just go straight to the blame

Now all you are is just a faded photograph

That now remains inside my twisted brain

As you get the last sadist laugh

Of putting me on a suicidal path!

Random verse of mine inspired by my bipolar, now high-roller #exgf and also by #Eminem, @Eminem

When it comes to love

I guess I am addicted

Because I just can’t get enough

Does that make me masochistic?

It must, because you were sadistic

But I still came back more optimistic

Even when my expectations were unrealistic

But I still tortured myself the way I revisited

This relationship that we had that was twisted

So I guess I am obsessive and masochistic

That misses the pain that came with your love

The bloodstains that remain in the aftermath

Of our psychopath-warpath that we both on

The long bloodbaths that we would take

Just to wash away all of the bloodstains

And mistakes from the night before

And watched our love go down the drain

Like we were trying to flush bags of cocaine

Before the cops came, bullet to the brain, Kurt Cobain!

Forget rehab; just go straight to the blame

Now all you are is just a faded photograph

That now remains inside my twisted brain

As you get the last sadist laugh

Of putting me on a suicidal path!