All Inside my Head #poem by Raven inspired by #LinkinPark

All inside My Head

By Raven

 

This might be all inside my head

But you’ve got me on the edge

Because what you did to me

I’d be better off being dead

Because now you’re just another memory

That’s trapped inside my head

That now haunts me

Like a ghost inside of my head

 

With your legs that you spread

I thought what we had was real

But I was just misled

Though you never saw it as a big deal

You just left me hanging by a thread

As my life you just steal

 

Walked away and left me for DEAD!

 

So this might be all inside my head

But you’ve got me on the edge

Because what you did to me

I’d be better off being dead

Because now you’re just another memory

That’s trapped inside my head

That now haunts me

Like a ghost inside of my head

 

I bled for you and stood by your side

So go ahead and deny

But your lies is what you fed

Put inside of my head and embed

As the truth is what you hide

Put to bed and denied

See I should’ve fled

But instead I stayed

Just to watch you fade away

Memories I now dread

 

See this might be all inside my head

But you’ve got me on the edge

Because what you did to me

I’d be better off being dead

Because now you’re just another memory

That’s trapped inside my head

That now haunts me

Like a ghost inside of my head

 

I should’ve red between the lines

But I acted like an illiterate

That couldn’t read the warning signs

While you were just inconsiderate

Looking for ways to waste my time

And kill my sunshine!

 

So this might be all inside my head

But you’ve got me on the edge

Because what you did to me

I’d be better off being dead

Because now you’re just another memory

That’s trapped inside my head

That now haunts me

Like a ghost inside of my head

Dark #poem by Raven called Not Scared Of The Light inspired by #LinkinPark and my life growing up alone in imposter homes and group homes misunderstood and used and mentally and physically abused and left to be forgotten and erased and replaced

Not Scared Of the Light

By Raven

 

See if I was to commit suicide

And leave this world behind

I don’t think anyone will care

If it wasn’t my time

As long as I find happiness

Outside of my despair

Everyone will be fine

So pull out the chair

And let it be my time

No need for another prayer

 

See I’m not scared of the light

I know that life isn’t fair

So what’s the point of trying to fight?

Therefore I’m not scared to go into the light

 

My loneliness shines bright

And I’m tired of all these phonies

Only wanting me to stay in their sights

So they can control me and own me

And take away my rights

 

See I’m not scared of the light

I know that life isn’t fair

So what’s the point of trying to fight?

Therefore I’m not scared to go into the light

 

See my pain is relentless

Leaving me defenseless

Only if you could peek through my blinders

Because all I see is reminders

Hence this is why I meant this

So please let it all end tonight

 

See I’m not scared of the light

I know that life isn’t fair

So what’s the point of trying to fight?

Therefore I’m not scared to go into the light

 

All I’ve got are these lyrics I write

No friends, just these voices inside my head

So why do I still fight?

If everybody wishes me dead

Another lonely night

Where I’m hanging on by a thread

Wishing I disappeared out of sight

 

See I’m not scared of the light

I know that life isn’t fair

So what’s the point of trying to fight?

Therefore I’m not scared to go into the light

 

So let these words reveal

How I feel

Even if they are absurd

I’m not made out of steel

So let these words reveal

How I feel

 

See I’m not scared of the light

I know that life isn’t fair

So what’s the point of trying to fight?

Therefore I’m not scared to go into the light

 

 

My latest by Raven called I Felt This inspired by #LinkinPark

I Felt This

By Raven

 

I wish you could understand this

But instead you think I’m being devilish and selfish

And not giving a fuck that I was helpless

 

But see I felt this

Storm coming on

Oh! You could’ve shout this

But I was still headstrong

Ignoring how I felt this

Even though I knew you were wrong

For me and I felt this

 

See you could’ve came at me like high tides

And wash me away like you were Poseidon

So why are you still deciding?

See I saw this storm coming over the horizon

Because every day felt like I was in a fight

And I was going up against Mike Tyson

Trying to step out of the darkness into the light

In hopes that I’ll see a new dawn

But all I see is darkness and no sun

 

See I felt this

Storm coming on

But I was outdone, outgun

As this rain I could not outrun

Now I’m left in my pain drench

So I hope you had fun at my expense?

 

But see I felt this

Storm coming on

Oh! You could’ve shout this

But I was still headstrong

Ignoring how I felt this

Even though I knew you were wrong

For me and I felt this

 

See I could’ve build all these walls

To keep you out

But it was always an uphill battle

Because you didn’t care how I felt

 

See I wish I could melt your heart

But you were always like this from the start

But I was just too naive

Because you were my spark

Shining through my dark

So I believed

Ignoring that you were wrong for me

As I tried to prolong what we had

 

But see I felt this

Storm coming on

Oh! You could’ve shout this

But I was still headstrong

Ignoring how I felt this

Even though I knew you were wrong

For me and I felt this

Songbird’s Random Verse of Mine inspired by #MichaelJackson

See I didn’t think she would reply

And say hi as that was inconceivable

Plus I was nervous with them butterflies

Worried that she would just say goodbye

All because I was too naive to realized

She was deceitful dressed in a disguise

And I was a fly caught in her web of lies

That couldn’t escape if I tried

All in with my foolish pride

As she came at me so seductively

With them addictive thighs

Along with those deceitful eyes

That got me all hypnotized

Trapped inside her web of lies

And before I could realize

She was already looking

For her next victim to victimize

Regardless By Raven inspired by #LinkinPark and #ChesterBennington

Regardless

By Raven

 

Regardless

Of what you think of me

I’m just a tortured artist

Trying to break free

But I still think like a narcissist

Though you’ll see me as a carcass

Beating heartless

Lonely in my darkness

As you’ll come to discard this

 

Trapped in my own portrait

In my lonely world where nobody’s orbits

Painting thoughts that are morbid

Wishing some nights I had forfeit

And lied in dormant

So I can hide this pain of being an orphan

Instead of absorbing this hurt of torment

Feeling so unimportant

Portending to be the hardest

So I can feel important

 

But regardless

Of what you think of me

I’m just a tortured artist

Trying to break free

But I still think like a narcissist

Though you’ll see me as a carcass

Beating heartless

Lonely in my darkness

As you’ll come to discard this

 

Spending lonely nights in open bars

Drinking ‘til I’m punched drunk and seeing stars

With no regards, reopening my scars

And burning myself out like a cigar

Crashing like cars

Feeling like an alien from Mars

Because I don’t know where I belong?

Do I belong among the stars?

Because see if I drop my guard

I paint myself as a target

Where you’ll take advantage and vanish

And not care about the damage

As that’s my cross to bear, my lost to wear

While I wait for your heart to defrost

But you’ll just disappear into the darkness

Without a care

 

So regardless

Of what you think of me

I’m just a tortured artist

Trying to break free

But I still think like a narcissist

Though you’ll see me as a carcass

Beating heartless

Lonely in my darkness

As you’ll come to discard this

 

So as much as I wanna be memorable

I know that I’m just expendable

 

But regardless

Of what you think of me

I’m just a tortured artist

Trying to break free

But I still think like a narcissist

Though you’ll see me as a carcass

Beating heartless

Lonely in my darkness

As you’ll come to discard this

Songbird’s first Verse of Mine to my next one inspired by #MichaelJackson

Our love was on the fast lane

Moving fast like octane

That I didn’t see that the forecast

Was going to bring me a cloudiness of pain

That would rain down on my soul

As our love went up in a ball of flames

But my ego tried so hard to maintain

That I was still in control

While I hid behind a mask of pain

Wearing a smile of disdain

But still I was happy when it came

To removing all of the chains

That you once bound me to

That you used as your alibi

With them fake tears you cry

My Latest One Called Armageddon’s Fiery Rain #poem by Songbird inspired by #MichaelJackson

Armageddon’s Fiery Rain

By Songbird

 

As the fiery rain came down

And Armageddon was all around

And I was abandon in my pain

Where were you? Never to be found

As you just moved onto the next town

While you left me wearing a frown

A smile forever turned upside down

 

How could you do what you did baby?

And leave me in Armageddon’s fiery rain?

Oh! How could you do what you did baby?

Don’t you feel ashamed?

Oh! How could you do what you did baby?

And leave me in Armageddon’s fiery rain?

 

Now my veins are filled with disdain

As I am drenched in Armageddon’s rain

As my world is crashing down like a fiery airplane

All around me, ashes is all that remains

As I still can’t get you off of my brain

I used to be happy when you called out my name

Now all I feel is the pain that you caused me

And the shame that still haunts me

 

Oh! How could you do what you did baby?

And leave me in Armageddon’s fiery rain?

Oh! How could you do what you did baby?

Don’t you feel ashamed?

Oh! How could you do what you did baby?

And leave me in Armageddon’s fiery rain?

 

Oh! How could you do what you did baby?

And leave me in Armageddon’s fiery rain?

Oh! How could you do what you did baby?

Don’t you feel ashamed?

Oh! How could you do what you did baby?

And leave me in Armageddon’s fiery rain?

 

Oh! How could you do what you did baby?

And leave me in Armageddon’s fiery rain?

Oh! How could you do what you did baby?

Don’t you feel ashamed?

Oh! How could you do what you did baby?

And leave me in Armageddon’s fiery rain?

 

I should have seen

But instead all I saw was lust

Because our love was like a movie

On how scripted it was

But all I was is your Jack Ruby

Your scapegoat to use me

Your Oswald excuse to shoot me

But your love once amuse me

But that was long ago baby

Before you abused me

And your lies confused me

With them hypnotized eyes

That once accused me

 

Oh! How could you do what you did baby?

And leave me in Armageddon’s fiery rain?

Oh! How could you hurt my soul?

And cause me so much pain?

Oh! How could you do what you did baby?

Don’t you feel ashamed?

Oh! How could you do what you did baby?

And leave me in Armageddon’s fiery rain?